I feel like sh-it. Constantly ruminating and having an internal monologue on how useless I am. Hating my parents for bringing me to this world with this horrible illness. I haven’t taken my meds for three days now and I started talking to myself again. Arguing about nonsense.
With schiz you are absolutely nothing. A useless piece of sh-it, I was made so other people could step all over me and feel good about themselves while they were doing it.
Aww, you’re a good dude speedy. I would reccomened taking your meds though. The human species can be brilliant kind or horribly blind and cruel.
I would reccommened reading, i resd biology and it makes me feel lucky to be alive, considering genetic mutations that kill, pandemics, being the fusion of a successful egg and sperm, our anxestors surviving harsh climates, my mum and dad meeting, the earth being in exactly the right place relative to the sun to sustain life.
Or if you’re not into bio, you could try fiction. The world is a harsh place and surviving as long as we have is incredible luck. But reading can broaden our horizons.
Might be contributing to the problem. I would try to take them. But yeah sometimes you get comfortable in bed and don’t want to get up lol. I’ve missed mine many times and I feel worse after from the withdrawal and stuff. Really causes chaos in the brain when they are cut off.
Its awful i understand and scary but hes in the best place rn for him. I hope you manage to feel well enough to see him soon. You must be responsible about taking your meds, so that you can be there for your family. People need you. Dont beat yourself up its pointless. Just baby steps for now, keep trying to brush your teeth and go to bed a bit earlier