Other one got everything and no abuse and friends and praise and support net work and everything while one isolated , constant critisism ,opression, molested, raped, abuse, trauma etc.
Nothing one does is “good enough” and nothing one doesnt do either apparently.
Not feeling respected , valued , etc.
Start with respect and feeling safe and ones tribe n people n feel like n be self and able to breath snd just exist.
Not sure what exactly is going on, but often the perception of abuse is a symptom of sz. Not trying to gaslight you tho, it could be real. If the criticism is real then the best thing is to remember that the things people say and do towards you don’t reflect you or reality, but the way they are.
Yes, you should be confident in your appearance and your character. You have shown yourself to be a beautiful and kind person on the forum over the years, you have a lot to feel good about yourself about.
I’m sorry for you. That’s tough to deal with. I agree there’s a chance it could be your schizophrenia though. I say that because it’s obvious you’re a good person who doesn’t deserve negative treatment.