# I am so dirty it's depressing me
**URL:** https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936
**Category:** Diagnosed Sz or Sza
**Created:** [April 30, 2026, 1:31pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936 "2026-04-30T13:31:09Z")
**Posts on this page:** 9
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### Author:  [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)
#### Post date: [April 30, 2026, 1:31pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/1 "2026-04-30T13:31:09Z")
Because I’m depressed right now and have been for a long time. I’m schizoaffective depressive type. I was so stupid not to take the offer the dr gave me of antidepressants yesterday! I was stupid enough to say I’m not depressed when of course I have almost nonstop depression. Sza is a b\*\*\*h. My house has gotten too much for me to keep up cleaning, I’m overwhelmed with dust and dirt when all I want to do is hide in bed or hurt myself. 😭😭🌧 I don’t know what to do. Hubby doesn’t understand. He thinks I don’t care for him. I do but I can’t show it properly. I don’t have the strength he needs and expects from me. I’m a useless mentally ill nobody 😭
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### Author:  [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)
#### Post date: [April 30, 2026, 2:31pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/2 "2026-04-30T14:31:01Z")
You are not useless at all; you have a very challenging health condition
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### Author:  [@roxanna](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/roxanna)
#### Post date: [April 30, 2026, 2:31pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/3 "2026-04-30T14:31:28Z")
I am also schizoaffective depressive. Are you taking meds? Can you go to a crisis center?
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### Author:  [@anon63960434](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/anon63960434)
#### Post date: [April 30, 2026, 2:33pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/4 "2026-04-30T14:33:27Z")
Sorry to hear that. Find the strength to tell someone, either your treatment team or husband. Everyone has their moments, even the mentally well…
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### Author:  [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)
#### Post date: [April 30, 2026, 4:54pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/5 "2026-04-30T16:54:52Z")
Yes I’m taking meds but only antipsychotics and a mood stabilizer not an antidepressant. Next time I see dr I’ll ask him for one. Maybe it’s best…
I don’t think we in South Africa have crisis centres. I’m not sure, never heard of one. Only hospitals, outpatients depts and mental health organisations
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### Author:  [@roxanna](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/roxanna)
#### Post date: [April 30, 2026, 6:51pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/6 "2026-04-30T18:51:08Z")
Well I hope you get to feeling better and see your pdoc. It’s hard I know. I’ve been depressed lately. Don’t give up.hugs
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### Author:  [@Sunshine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Sunshine)
#### Post date: [May 1, 2026, 6:06am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/7 "2026-05-01T06:06:51Z")
I hope you feel better.
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### Author:  [@greenlife231](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/greenlife231)
#### Post date: [May 1, 2026, 8:12am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/8 "2026-05-01T08:12:10Z")
I remember when I was off meds I became very harsh on myself. I judged myself all the time and was the worst enemy to myself. Now I realize that It’s not that you were very moral that way it’s just that you were sick. So you need to take meds and on an enough dose as well.
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### Author:  [@sweetpotatopie](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/sweetpotatopie)
#### Post date: [June 18, 2026, 2:15am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-am-so-dirty-its-depressing-me/4936/9 "2026-06-18T02:15:49Z")