# I dont see y im alive **URL:** \ **Category:** Diagnosed Sz or Sza\ **Created:** [June 29, 2026, 7:11pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750 "2026-06-29T19:11:04Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 3
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 8:55pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/41 "2026-06-29T20:55:20Z")
> [@Daydreamer](#): > > guess trust has to be earned… or does it? > > I think I do not know how to trust. Dont think i ever will in infinity either. Its how i am. ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 8:55pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/42 "2026-06-29T20:55:43Z")
> [@Daydreamer](#): > > what I am able to do despite all the ■■■■ I had thrown at me. Sorry to hear this @Daydreamer about the disrespect thrown at you. ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 8:57pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/43 "2026-06-29T20:57:02Z")
Its weird cos i can make a decision and believe it but idk how to trust..😂 ---
**Author:** ![Daydreamer](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/daydreamer/32/3042_2.png) [@Daydreamer](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Daydreamer)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 8:58pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/44 "2026-06-29T20:58:10Z")
you’d be surprised how many people have trust issues in this world, its a pandemic lol ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 9:16pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/45 "2026-06-29T21:16:56Z")
Yea im sure many people do. I am one of them ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 9:17pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/46 "2026-06-29T21:17:22Z")
Sometimes its good not to trust tho. Its not always a disease. ---
**Author:** ![Daydreamer](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/daydreamer/32/3042_2.png) [@Daydreamer](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Daydreamer)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 9:23pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/47 "2026-06-29T21:23:31Z")
I think its good to be cautious or wary but I wouldn’t let it control me, its just like an instinct that you feel, like picking up vibes and you blame it on this or that, I go with my gut a lot of the time, I have been stung a number of times though and it’s not nice. I thought I could trust but I trusted the wrong people, I think thats more their problem than mine though, I was just the receiver of their betrayals. they were the ones who were at fault not me, still hurts though. ---
**Author:** ![SauceyMike](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/sauceymike/32/3907_2.png) [@SauceyMike](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/SauceyMike)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 9:35pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/48 "2026-06-29T21:35:01Z")
Write down some goals n dreams and work towards them every day :). ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 10:08pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/49 "2026-06-29T22:08:11Z")
I also think that 78 years to get to know someone feels too short. ---
**Author:** ![Nomad](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/nomad/32/9943_2.png) [@Nomad](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Nomad)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 10:09pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/50 "2026-06-29T22:09:40Z")
You’re a treasure, Zoe. Fight back against these negative thoughts ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 10:09pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/51 "2026-06-29T22:09:40Z")
It feels meaningless if we get 2 know one another over 70 years to only then die lol ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 29, 2026, 10:10pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/52 "2026-06-29T22:10:03Z")
Thanks man you are also a treasure. ---
**Author:** ![POET](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/poet/32/485_2.png) [@POET](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/POET)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 3:20am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/53 "2026-06-30T03:20:34Z")
hope you feel better zoe… try to get some hydrating drinks in like milk, fruit, vegetables etc. ---
**Author:** ![TheCanuk](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/thecanuk/32/9_2.png) [@TheCanuk](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/TheCanuk)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 3:35am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/54 "2026-06-30T03:35:36Z")
Wishing the best for you @Zoe - Things can improve. ---
**Author:** ![Rainstorm](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/rainstorm/32/17594_2.png) [@Rainstorm](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Rainstorm)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 4:32am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/55 "2026-06-30T04:32:22Z")
Praying for you 🙏 ---
**Author:** ![Agent101g](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/agent101g/32/8202_2.png) [@Agent101g](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Agent101g)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 6:41am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/56 "2026-06-30T06:41:51Z")
Maybe you can find someone to talk to in person about it. Are you covered for therapy? And as for trauma, I just block all mine out. I have to think pretty hard to remember being strangled, screamed at or locked in a tiny cell. Being sarcastic and deadpan helps. I know it doesn’t work that way for everyone though. ---
**Author:** ![Joker](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/joker/32/13470_2.png) [@Joker](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Joker)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 7:40am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/57 "2026-06-30T07:40:07Z")
I do what I can to help people Just trying to right the wrongs and be there for my parents especially who have gone through a lot with me and stayed ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 1:41pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/58 "2026-06-30T13:41:31Z")
Thanks everyone. This has helped get me out of this delusional infinity state. The truth is facts. The facts are that we are alive. And we dont know anything about death if there is something afterwards or not. ---
**Author:** ![Mataheru](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/e5b9ba/32.png) [@Mataheru](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Mataheru)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 3:51pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/59 "2026-06-30T15:51:55Z")
do you have existential pain? ---
**Author:** ![DarkStar](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/darkstar/32/17376_2.png) [@DarkStar](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/DarkStar)\ **Post date:** [June 30, 2026, 3:54pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750/60 "2026-06-30T15:54:22Z")
I’m sorry Zoe .. all I can say is you don’t deserve trauma or a boring life. This may sound stupid but maybe your living to find a reason for living [Previous page](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750.md?page=2) [Next page](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-see-y-im-alive/6750.md?page=4)