# I don't want to be a pawn so took prn med TW
**URL:** https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-want-to-be-a-pawn-so-took-prn-med-tw/4502
**Category:** Unusual Beliefs
**Created:** [April 15, 2026, 10:34pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-want-to-be-a-pawn-so-took-prn-med-tw/4502 "2026-04-15T22:34:30Z")
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### Author:  [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)
#### Post date: [April 15, 2026, 10:34pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-want-to-be-a-pawn-so-took-prn-med-tw/4502/1 "2026-04-15T22:34:30Z")
I had voices again tonight. wanted to be a scapegoat because Alien the evil spirit wants to use me as his pawn to harm my husband and I’m tired of it. cried and fortunately Sarah the good spirit made an appearance and she sang me the mockingbird lullaby over and over.
I wish I could be sedated but I don’t have lorazepam as I dearly wished (I really must ask my dr for prescription for it!!) so I took extra 2,5mg haloperidol just now. I usually take 5mg. waiting to feel it work so I can sleep. it’s past midnight here in Cape Town. I can hear the sound of the sea outside, so soothing. shhhhhhhhh…
tomorrow hubby said I must try see if I can go see dr urgently. it’s not the day I usually go - Wednesdays are the days I go - but if they can see me tomorrow Thursday it will be helpful. I seem to be in the throes of my next relapse…
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### Author:  [@Sunshine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Sunshine)
#### Post date: [April 17, 2026, 4:42am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-want-to-be-a-pawn-so-took-prn-med-tw/4502/2 "2026-04-17T04:42:10Z")
Wishing you all the best. Hope you feel better soon.
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### Author:  [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)
#### Post date: [April 17, 2026, 11:02pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-want-to-be-a-pawn-so-took-prn-med-tw/4502/3 "2026-04-17T23:02:13Z")
Thank you Sunshine 😊
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### Author:  [@sweetpotatopie](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/sweetpotatopie)
#### Post date: [June 18, 2026, 5:58pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-dont-want-to-be-a-pawn-so-took-prn-med-tw/4502/4 "2026-06-18T17:58:39Z")