# I hate this illness! **URL:** \ **Category:** Health and Recovery\ **Created:** [May 3, 2026, 8:33pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044 "2026-05-03T20:33:40Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Speedy](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/speedy/32/145_2.png) [@Speedy](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Speedy)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 8:33pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/1 "2026-05-03T20:33:40Z")
Life just going down the drain. Years passing by. Same old madness. ---
**Author:** ![Corion](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/corion/32/8884_2.png) [@Corion](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Corion)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 8:34pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/2 "2026-05-03T20:34:34Z")
Im with you @Speedy this thing sucks. Limits so much of my life. ---
**Author:** ![Speedy](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/speedy/32/145_2.png) [@Speedy](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Speedy)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 8:35pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/3 "2026-05-03T20:35:46Z")
Yes, limits is the right word. I can’t do much. I’m an empty shell of my former self. ---
**Author:** ![TheCanuk](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/thecanuk/32/9_2.png) [@TheCanuk](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/TheCanuk)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 8:48pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/4 "2026-05-03T20:48:27Z")
It’s depressing to see all the people I went to school with having great careers, healthy, great social life, and then theres me who struggles to do simple things. ---
**Author:** ![Speedy](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/speedy/32/145_2.png) [@Speedy](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Speedy)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:04pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/5 "2026-05-03T21:04:29Z")
I was thinking the same. I just want to go on with my life. But I can’t. ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:04pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/6 "2026-05-03T21:04:38Z")
It is sad for me I feel I cannot have a bf or a family. My condition is stopping it ---
**Author:** ![Speedy](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/speedy/32/145_2.png) [@Speedy](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Speedy)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:05pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/7 "2026-05-03T21:05:41Z")
Yes, i would like to date, meet someone. But being mad and unemployment gets in the way. ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:06pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/8 "2026-05-03T21:06:07Z")
Same same, it is so sad I feel you. ---
**Author:** ![anon68822644](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/a/53a042/32.png) [@anon68822644](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/anon68822644)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:08pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/9 "2026-05-03T21:08:42Z")
Things change when you get older @Speedy ---
**Author:** ![Speedy](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/speedy/32/145_2.png) [@Speedy](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Speedy)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:09pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/10 "2026-05-03T21:09:30Z")
I’m 43. Nothing has changed. It’s the same BS every day. ---
**Author:** ![anon68822644](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/a/53a042/32.png) [@anon68822644](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/anon68822644)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:10pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/11 "2026-05-03T21:10:39Z")
I’m nearly 52.Last three years I learned that I’m not sick ,just unique .. ---
**Author:** ![Corion](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/corion/32/8884_2.png) [@Corion](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Corion)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:17pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/12 "2026-05-03T21:17:05Z")
Im thankful for tv, streaming services and video games. Helps me to get through it. The voices, delusion of control and td. I want to learn a couple of songs on the guitar and how to sketch a little ---
**Author:** ![FreeLunch](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/freelunch/32/1001_2.png) [@FreeLunch](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/FreeLunch)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:19pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/13 "2026-05-03T21:19:28Z")
Things can get better. I just got a job. I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep it but I have to keep trying and so do you ---
**Author:** ![FreeLunch](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/freelunch/32/1001_2.png) [@FreeLunch](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/FreeLunch)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:20pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/14 "2026-05-03T21:20:06Z")
Same goes for girls. You just got to keep trying ---
**Author:** ![Dika](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/dika/32/9061_2.png) [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2026, 9:24pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/15 "2026-05-03T21:24:19Z")
My life was wrecked too by sza. Got it very early just in high school so didn’t get a chance to study at varsity even. Had no career. All my peers I found out about had careers and independence. Me? Totally dependent on husband, no career, no income, not even disability grant (because I’m married to a husband with plenty money) no driver’s licence, no motivation, lost interest in life… ---
**Author:** ![Relaxe](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/r/d2c977/32.png) [@Relaxe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Relaxe)\ **Post date:** [May 9, 2026, 3:21am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/16 "2026-05-09T03:21:59Z")
I’m sorry that you feel that bad. But our conditions aren’t static and may improve in some years.👍 ---
**Author:** ![Raptor\_Z](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/raptor_z/32/14830_2.png) [@Raptor\_Z](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Raptor_Z)\ **Post date:** [May 9, 2026, 5:20am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/17 "2026-05-09T05:20:11Z")
Shift the direction ---
**Author:** ![Raptor\_Z](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/raptor_z/32/14830_2.png) [@Raptor\_Z](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Raptor_Z)\ **Post date:** [May 9, 2026, 5:20am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/18 "2026-05-09T05:20:49Z")
Turn wheel to the positive direction ---
**Author:** ![Raptor\_Z](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/raptor_z/32/14830_2.png) [@Raptor\_Z](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Raptor_Z)\ **Post date:** [May 9, 2026, 5:21am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/19 "2026-05-09T05:21:17Z")
Do atleast somethii ng small to be proud of ---
**Author:** ![SzSupportAdmin](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/szsupportadmin/32/334_2.png) [@SzSupportAdmin](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/SzSupportAdmin)\ **Post date:** [May 9, 2026, 6:29am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044/20 "2026-05-09T06:29:05Z")
I agree with @FreeLunch . It can be really hard, but things can turn around and get better too. Don’t give up hope for improvements. Maybe try to appreciate the little things for now and keep trying. It costs you nothing to keep trying. Life doesnt last forever so I hope you all are able to squeeze as much out of it as you can. [Next page](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/i-hate-this-illness/5044.md?page=2)