# Im so ashamed of myself **URL:** \ **Category:** Lounge\ **Created:** [August 4, 2026, 5:06pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696 "2026-08-04T17:06:17Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 6\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Dika](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/dika/32/9061_2.png) [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)\ **Post date:** [August 4, 2026, 5:06pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696/1 "2026-08-04T17:06:17Z")
Because my husband had a day or two with post ictal psychosis and was a little paranoid and acted unexpectedly sometimes and I treated him badly, questioned him till he got upset and said he can’t do anything anymore. It was awful! I should know when I get psychosis how well he treats me and how it’s a portal to unseen. But when hubby experiences his portal into unseen I get all scared and upset at him. It’s so wrong of me! I’m so ashamed of myself! Just when he’s paranoid it makes me paranoid too. Simultaneously psychotic. But still, I should let him be, he’s done nothing wrong to me, if he wants to rearrange some objects to prevent his fears of electric circuitry/mind games from occurring I should just let him instead of interrogating him. I have psychosis myself, I should understand his!! I’m doing my penance by publishing on here how stupid I was. Hubby’s feeling better now, I think. But I should let him have his freedom if he’s not doing anything wrong or harmful, and he’s not. I’m just being too aggressive. Fck me. ---
**Author:** ![Lilyofthevalley](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/lilyofthevalley/32/52_2.png) [@Lilyofthevalley](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Lilyofthevalley)\ **Post date:** [August 4, 2026, 5:08pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696/2 "2026-08-04T17:08:12Z")
You should have a talk with him and apologize and say you’ll try to be more understanding in the future. ---
**Author:** ![Dika](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/dika/32/9061_2.png) [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)\ **Post date:** [August 4, 2026, 5:08pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696/3 "2026-08-04T17:08:41Z")
We did talk and I apologised, and he’s ok with me now ---
**Author:** ![Vaiana](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/vaiana/32/1879_2.png) [@Vaiana](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Vaiana)\ **Post date:** [August 4, 2026, 5:34pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696/4 "2026-08-04T17:34:36Z")
I get that you feel bad to not have be nice with him earlier Try to not beat yourself, your husband doesn’t seem to be angry Just try to leave the room if it overwelms you next time,breathe and come back to see him when you’re more calm Hopefully next time it will be okay ---
**Author:** ![Dika](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/dika/32/9061_2.png) [@Dika](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Dika)\ **Post date:** [August 5, 2026, 8:34am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696/5 "2026-08-05T08:34:05Z")
Thanks @Vaiana and @Lilyofthevalley for your contribution and kind words, I appreciate it! ---
**Author:** ![Lilyofthevalley](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/lilyofthevalley/32/52_2.png) [@Lilyofthevalley](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Lilyofthevalley)\ **Post date:** [August 5, 2026, 12:57pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/im-so-ashamed-of-myself/7696/6 "2026-08-05T12:57:08Z")
I’m glad you talked it out and you can now let it go guilt free