# Its not worked im still wanting to end it TW **URL:** \ **Category:** Diagnosed Sz or Sza\ **Created:** [May 31, 2026, 1:47am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887 "2026-05-31T01:47:19Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Ducky](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/ducky/32/16791_2.png) [@Ducky](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Ducky)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 1:47am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/1 "2026-05-31T01:47:19Z")
Xxttttaaaa cccc 15 chara ---
**Author:** ![TheCanuk](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/thecanuk/32/9_2.png) [@TheCanuk](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/TheCanuk)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 1:50am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/3 "2026-05-31T01:50:24Z")
I know you’re struggling right now Ducky. You have people that care about you, in real life and on the forum. Keep fighting, things can and WILL improve for you. ---
**Author:** ![Wave](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/wave/32/14465_2.png) [@Wave](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Wave)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:03am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/4 "2026-05-31T02:03:12Z")
If you are struggling please reach out for help. Contact your doctor ASAP There are lots of people that care about you @Ducky ---
**Author:** ![Ducky](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/ducky/32/16791_2.png) [@Ducky](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Ducky)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:05am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/5 "2026-05-31T02:05:06Z")
Nothing to see ---
**Author:** ![TumbleBee](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/tumblebee/32/6298_2.png) [@TumbleBee](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/TumbleBee)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:06am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/6 "2026-05-31T02:06:53Z")
I thought I would feel suicidal forever but I don’t feel suicidal at all now. It took a crisis like you’re having, where I gave up and let go of a lot of things I wanted. In a sense, part of me did die by surrendering the struggle. It took time to grieve, but I emerged happier than before. ---
**Author:** ![Wave](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/wave/32/14465_2.png) [@Wave](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Wave)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:07am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/7 "2026-05-31T02:07:44Z")
Sounds like you are very depressed @Ducky Please contact your doctor ASAP ---
**Author:** ![TumbleBee](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/tumblebee/32/6298_2.png) [@TumbleBee](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/TumbleBee)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:39am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/9 "2026-05-31T02:39:53Z")
Feeling empty is absolutely fine unless you desire to feel full, in which case the suffering of ‘not feeling full’ is a problem. So emptiness itself is not the problem, but your resistance to emptiness and the desire to feel differently is causing the pain. Emptiness by itself does not cause pain. ---
**Author:** ![jukebox](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/j/b487fb/32.png) [@jukebox](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/jukebox)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:59am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/10 "2026-05-31T02:59:17Z")
oh no…you seemed to be doing so well? please stop hurting yourself…you are loved. ---
**Author:** ![Ducky](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/ducky/32/16791_2.png) [@Ducky](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Ducky)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 4:40am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/11 "2026-05-31T04:40:47Z")
Im okay now thinking of staying with my parents for some rest and a change of scenery. Ive been up all night with hubby but im ok ---
**Author:** ![jukebox](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/j/b487fb/32.png) [@jukebox](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/jukebox)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 5:01am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/12 "2026-05-31T05:01:34Z")
oh thank goodness…yes, go see your parents that love you. ---
**Author:** ![POET](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/poet/32/485_2.png) [@POET](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/POET)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 9:09am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/13 "2026-05-31T09:09:42Z")
hope your doing ok ducky 🫂 ---
**Author:** ![anon63960434](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/a/e274bd/32.png) [@anon63960434](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/anon63960434)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 10:30am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/14 "2026-05-31T10:30:14Z")
Hi Ducky, that sounds miserable but remember that the situation can always change no matter what. Your treatment team is the start of a new beginning with hope for the future. Never give up… you are stronger than you think! ---
**Author:** ![Vinegar](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/vinegar/32/178_2.png) [@Vinegar](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Vinegar)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 11:13am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/15 "2026-05-31T11:13:51Z")
I am so sorry you are struggling @Ducky😢 ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 12:31pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/16 "2026-05-31T12:31:45Z")
dont leave us we really like you ---
**Author:** ![anon80779285](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/a/919ad9/32.png) [@anon80779285](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/anon80779285)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 1:06pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/17 "2026-05-31T13:06:33Z")
I’ve come to my parents place today, but the thoughts are back. Atp, idek what to do anymore. Gonna ask if I can double dose the antidepressants tomorrow when my care worker visits ---
**Author:** ![Ducky](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/ducky/32/16791_2.png) [@Ducky](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Ducky)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:35pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/18 "2026-05-31T14:35:10Z")
I literally kept hubby awake all night he is such a godsend these days. Im feeling low but ok ive slept some @POET Yes @anon80779285 ask if you can increase your antidepressant that could really help. I had mine doubled to 20mg but i still struggle unfortunately. Hope it works for you Thanks @Zoe @Vinegar i like all of you too. Im sorry i go down this rabbit hole so much @anon63960434 yea mh team will speak to them tomorrow , thanks ---
**Author:** ![Zoe](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/zoe/32/7475_2.png) [@Zoe](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Zoe)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 2:43pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/19 "2026-05-31T14:43:54Z")
No need to apologise ---
**Author:** ![Ducky](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/ducky/32/16791_2.png) [@Ducky](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Ducky)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 3:06pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/20 "2026-05-31T15:06:34Z")
I got out of having a mh assessment today. Im going for a walk with hubby and playing music today. I didnt wake up again until 3pm so i will prob be up again tonight. But this happens i get thoughts and feel empty then im down that rabbit hole again , its no good ive got to stop this its no good ---
**Author:** ![Ducky](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/ducky/32/16791_2.png) [@Ducky](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Ducky)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 4:55pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/21 "2026-05-31T16:55:13Z")
Ive got to utilise the diazapam more @anon80779285 i hope you feel better soon ---
**Author:** ![anon80779285](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/a/919ad9/32.png) [@anon80779285](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/anon80779285)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2026, 5:10pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887/22 "2026-05-31T17:10:00Z")
Thank you, i’m doing my best to just distract myself - trying to find what i can pursue to regain employment for now. Likewise, [Next page](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/its-not-worked-im-still-wanting-to-end-it-tw/5887.md?page=2)