# My life use to be crap now it’s better but I’m depressed TW abuse and suicide **URL:** \ **Category:** Diagnosed Sz or Sza\ **Created:** [May 24, 2026, 10:20pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720 "2026-05-24T22:20:06Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [May 24, 2026, 10:20pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/1 "2026-05-24T22:20:06Z")
My life use to be crap I had several mentally abusive boyfriends and at least one mentally and physically abusive boyfriend I’ve been homeless for a few months sell my body to get a place to stay for the night and food I’ve also told my story for food… That was actually a nice time… I’ve begged for money online (I used whisper) I usually used it on food since I didn’t get much from that and I gave birth to a daughter after over 30 hours of labor I had a C-section and later lost her to child protective services because I was scared to tell I wasn’t there because I was scared of my now ex boyfriend my daughter was 22 days old when the incident happened and days before that she had gotten out of the NICU because she had jaundice a little over a year after my daughter was taken I tried to end my life and ended up in the hospital for 7 days for dr’s to save my life and then 7 more days in a different hospital for the behavioral health unit I then signed over my rights to my daughter to the state. This isn’t the order everything happened I’m just saying what all I went through Now I have my disability I met and Married my husband got his disability have an apartment of our own I’m slowly losing weight we have a car I met my daughter after not seeing her for almost 6 years and video chat her about once a month sometimes more I have a good mother in law and nieces and a nephew who try to be good people and life is good… And yet my past haunts me I cry a lot I feel like these things didn’t make me stronger but weak and like I can’t get over all of this I’ve tried but with my daughter’s birthday this month it’s even worse I don’t know what to do anymore I feel stuck I usually end up in the behavioral health unit around this time every year but I’m trying so hard not to I’m depressed I need a shower or bath I need to finish laundry I need to do dishes but I’m doing crafts I’m eating I’m drinking water but I feel worthless I feel bad I want to do things but can’t… I’m just surviving… I want to thrive but can’t seem to ---
**Author:** ![FreeLunch](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/freelunch/32/1001_2.png) [@FreeLunch](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/FreeLunch)\ **Post date:** [May 24, 2026, 10:38pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/2 "2026-05-24T22:38:42Z")
Good luck. I hope you work through it ---
**Author:** ![roxanna](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/roxanna/32/17142_2.png) [@roxanna](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/roxanna)\ **Post date:** [May 24, 2026, 11:31pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/3 "2026-05-24T23:31:10Z")
Hugs. I think things will get better for you. ---
**Author:** ![DarkStar](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/darkstar/32/17376_2.png) [@DarkStar](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/DarkStar)\ **Post date:** [May 25, 2026, 12:16am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/4 "2026-05-25T00:16:11Z")
This too shall pass …stay strong I can’t totally relate but my life is much better as well but sometimes because of my past I feel like a bad person. It’s really hard but sometimes just accepting your feelings lessens them … ---
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [May 25, 2026, 7:54am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/5 "2026-05-25T07:54:43Z")
@DarkStar @roxanna @FreeLunch thanks yall ---
**Author:** ![Wave](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/wave/32/14465_2.png) [@Wave](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Wave)\ **Post date:** [May 26, 2026, 6:36pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/6 "2026-05-26T18:36:13Z")
I’m sorry that you are feeling down lately @Twialine I’ve been feeling a bit low myself these days. This shall pass ---
**Author:** ![Lilyofthevalley](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/lilyofthevalley/32/52_2.png) [@Lilyofthevalley](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Lilyofthevalley)\ **Post date:** [May 27, 2026, 12:07am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/7 "2026-05-27T00:07:47Z")
I’m sorry you’ve suffered so much. Dong give up. My life was horrible too all my life but is now much better ---
**Author:** ![Vaiana](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/vaiana/32/1879_2.png) [@Vaiana](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Vaiana)\ **Post date:** [May 27, 2026, 11:27am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/8 "2026-05-27T11:27:05Z")
I’m sorry for all you went through Maybe if you have the money for you could do a therapy for your issues, like for your traumas EMDR therapy is a good therapy for trauma Stay well surrounded and talk when you need I send you all my support 🫂 ---
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [May 30, 2026, 9:16pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/9 "2026-05-30T21:16:03Z")
@Vaiana I’m in therapy @Vaiana @Lilyofthevalley @Wave Thanks everyone ---
**Author:** ![greeneyedtreefrog](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/greeneyedtreefrog/32/15823_2.png) [@greeneyedtreefrog](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/greeneyedtreefrog)\ **Post date:** [May 30, 2026, 9:37pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/10 "2026-05-30T21:37:32Z")
I hope you can feel better. Doing crafts and keeping busy is a good idea. Also I read that if you are ruminating on they ‘why’s’ change them to ‘what’s’ go from ‘why did this happen’ to ‘what can i do about it?’ Also exercise is very good for mental health and gets rid of traumatic memories. Wishing you peace ---
**Author:** ![2Waynez](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/2waynez/32/176_2.png) [@2Waynez](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/2Waynez)\ **Post date:** [May 30, 2026, 9:40pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/11 "2026-05-30T21:40:34Z")
I always look for balance in my thoughts. I try to avoid extremes. Things happen. All we can do is try to do better. ---
**Author:** ![TrueMist](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/truemist/32/7686_2.png) [@TrueMist](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/TrueMist)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 1:07am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/12 "2026-06-03T01:07:05Z")
Dont you knit beautifully @Twialine ? Think it was your work of knitting craft i saw on photos here . That can be helpful. Things sound better for you now with good routine but you still have depression. Can you get on a anti depressant? Hope you feel more optimistic and better soon. ---
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 1:23am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/13 "2026-06-03T01:23:06Z")
@TrueMist sigh I’m now on 2 antidepressants and with the adding of the second I’m feeling better at least a little @2Waynez I can’t seem to get balance unless on meds @greeneyedtreefrog I crochet and now I’m embroidering I am tired of crochet and doing embroidery I also did a 8 minute workout routine and feeling a little better i also did something I’ve wanted to do for a while I got a tongue piercing!!! Really happy with it!!! ---
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 1:23am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/14 "2026-06-03T01:23:59Z")
@TrueMist my profile picture is one of my works ---
**Author:** ![greeneyedtreefrog](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/greeneyedtreefrog/32/15823_2.png) [@greeneyedtreefrog](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/greeneyedtreefrog)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 3:13am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/15 "2026-06-03T03:13:56Z")
Cool! I want a nose peircing, kinda 😛 Glad the workout helped a little. ---
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 9:07am UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/16 "2026-06-03T09:07:00Z")
@greeneyedtreefrog I’ve had my nose pierced before! It hurts a bit but not to bad ---
**Author:** ![greeneyedtreefrog](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/greeneyedtreefrog/32/15823_2.png) [@greeneyedtreefrog](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/greeneyedtreefrog)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 7:28pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/17 "2026-06-03T19:28:44Z")
I dunno i’m in two minds about getting my nose pierced. But thanks ---
**Author:** ![Twialine](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/twialine/32/735_2.png) [@Twialine](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/Twialine)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 7:41pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/18 "2026-06-03T19:41:03Z")
@greeneyedtreefrog id say the nose hurts worse than the tongue though ---
**Author:** ![greeneyedtreefrog](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/greeneyedtreefrog/32/15823_2.png) [@greeneyedtreefrog](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/greeneyedtreefrog)\ **Post date:** [June 3, 2026, 7:49pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/19 "2026-06-03T19:49:54Z")
I’ve had piercings before. Bridge, monroe, medusa, snake bites, septum.. ---
**Author:** ![sweetpotatopie](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/flex012/user_avatar/schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/sweetpotatopie/32/8234_2.png) [@sweetpotatopie](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/u/sweetpotatopie)\ **Post date:** [July 2, 2026, 3:00pm UTC](https://schizophreniasupport.discourse.group/t/my-life-use-to-be-crap-now-it-s-better-but-i-m-depressed-tw-abuse-and-suicide/5720/20 "2026-07-02T15:00:29Z")