Out of hospital but I still feel vulnerable. SH urges gone, voices quieter but radio still insistent in my head and I have such depression and avolition.
The nurse at the hospital said my usual psych hospital outpatients dept will call me with date to see dr again. I’d missed my last appt because of being in other hospital (the general one with psych ward). They would have transferred me to the specialist psych hospital I usually go to but they didn’t have beds so I waited three weeks but as I felt better I didn’t want to go be transferred anymore. So they discharged me from there.
The outpatients dept hasn’t yet phoned me and I’m wondering if I should call them because I want to see dr again soon to sort out my depression. He had mentioned antidepressant meds in our last appointment. But I didn’t think it was necessary at the time till a few days after that when I spiralled down.
My schizo side is under control but my affective side isn’t . I don’t know if it’s negative symptoms or depression. Probably both.
I managed to do some chores today but it was heavy going and I felt so fatigued and listless. Managed to read again but life feels so endlessly grey…
I’m thinking three options for med changes to discuss with dr
Either 1) add antidepressant but it may cause hypomania 2) increase lamotrigine to 300mg from 250 it’s on now or 3) add olanzapine instead of haloperidol as I’ve been on it before and it supposed to be a mood stabilizer as well.
Lots to discuss. Plus I want to give dr my treatise for portal into unseen I wrote up about my psychosis - about spirits and radio revelations from God, for safekeeping in my folder.
I still believe in the radio and spirits but as long as they don’t distress me I’ll be ok… radio was irritating today though. So lately pushed my amisulpride to 600mg from 500.
And that’s about my update for now!
everythigns gonna work out youll see.