I miss drugs and psychosis—it feels like the only real thing in my life. Life feels like a toy—me and the people around me.
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Sometimes I miss psychosis too. Crazy but that’s how it can be! Sometimes life when I’m well can be boring. But other times I’m grateful for it. But yeah, I understand if you miss psychosis. It can be very alluring.
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The funniest thing is that during psychosis or when you have delusional ideas, you are 100% sure of them, but in real life it’s not like that: you don’t understand what will happen tomorrow, you don’t know if people are lying to you, etc.
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Ask @Schizbro how great psychosis is.
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Life seems boring when you experience something way out of touch with usual reality. I get it that you miss it. However, theres so many things that seem boring but can cause a lot of happiness. For example - the sky. Sun. Plants. Animals. Observing it and reflecting on it is amazing, but it has to be taught. Connecting with nature is harmonious.
When you are in psychosis, you’re completely out of balance, everything seems extraordinary and unusual. But its causing you to break out of the chaos going on in the head.
Not being in psychosis may sometimes seem boring, but theres so many usual things that can bring the Light back to you when you learn to appreciate it. Look how recently there was an eclipse. The moon looked like its the same shape that sun from our perspective. Its amazing and it can bring so much happiness. The sun itself is very helpful, brings good emotions, makes you, animals and plants grow. Everything is in the same connected system. When i look at the natural enviroment, it brings me peace and harmony.
Theres this thing called enthropy. Its about harmony and chaos. When theres chaos, theres a bigger enthropy, and when theres harmony, theres a smaller enthropy. Like when the particles decay, theres higher. And i think the goal of the Universe and every creature within, is to minimalise enthropy, therefore be the most harmonious possible. And psychosis is the opposite- theres no harmony there.
Wellbeing may seem boring but you have to learn to see how actually good it is. Healing is necessary to feel good. I hope you heal 
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I’m talking about my feelings - from my psychoses