I watched the film, a beautiful mind long before I knew of schizophrenia properly. Til then, All I knew was that it was an illness (unbeknownst to me, I didn’t know it was more rooted in biology than say acute depression is)
Anyway. That film actually was done so well that it helped me identify my initial onset of psychosis
Did anyone else experience similar
That film also inspired me to want to an academic career. The idea of John Nash solving big problems in Princeton really inspired me. Heck, even rn, I’m feeling a tinge of guilt and regret that I’ll never have the opportunity to become an academic now lol 
I didn’t know ■■■■. I thought I might be depressed. They’re no internet then. No movies that I am aware of. But then I stayed seeing people’s auras in color and was constantly trying to figure out the code I was supposed to find to understand the auras. I thought I could see evil. Etc… I was 15-16 and they hospitalized me for 35 days and I got a few medications and I was doing much better when I left the hospital but my stupid f*cking father tossed all my pills down the drain. My mom kept filling the refills. I was on and off the meds so much I ended up in hospital again within months after an attempt. When I got out of was the pill game with my parents all over again. I didn’t understand fully how psychotic I was until my late 20s early 30s.
That sounds very traumatic. I’m sorry you had endured so much
Why can’t you become an academic? Is it too much for you mentally now?
I dropped out of my maths and physics degree because I didn’t want to go through to the end of it. The desire just was not strong enough.
Oh I was going to add that when I was a teen no one ever gave me a dx but I know it was a psychotic disorder of some kind bc they gave me stelazine a super old antipsychotic. But I didn’t know that’s what it was for.
@Mr.Apple well maybe something else will come along when you’re feeling better.
Thank you, I don’t mind too much because it would have taken another four years for me to complete. And I need employment now, so it was the correct decision 