Say Anything #18

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because people harras and judge me.

@Speedy i have a friend who just lost a child who is lonely in my home town. we could support each other..

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Iā€™m sorry people harass you and judge you. I think youā€™re a cool person

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Life is so boring. When u are urself ppl stay away from u. I get why ppl dont like 2 b authentic. I can never be myself. Its kind of part of my depression. Its like suffacation of the soul. Needs lot of investigation to figure out how 2 avoid rottingā€¦

Life is really crap but also really good.

I hope it tapers off as really good.

Im bored of the haters.

I dont want to be involved in their lives.

Why?

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thats ok. i just wish i could have my old life back, travel, foreign sweet as friends, moneyā€¦ a sense of being helpful to the world..

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I wouldnā€™t recommend that. Sure, be there as a friend. But I donā€™t think she is in the right place right now. Grief can take a long time.

And what happens when she feels better? Will she be there for you? Again, you donā€™t want her to feel that you owe her. It can become a trap and she might start to resent you.

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i dunno, she has mental health problems too and we got on well when i visited last timeā€¦ or i could movein with my asian friend and become a regular at the buddhist monastery

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Thatā€™s not possible! Nobody here can get their old life back. Life goes on. You need to plan for a future with what you have now.

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Do you believe in Buddhism?

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Its 2 am here. I cant sleep.

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I guess I should plan for a biology future then, seeing ts my main form of excitment and interest.

Buddhism, I kind of believ in, I have ahd spiritual experience based on eastern religions, so I tend to think i would like to get back there if possibleā€¦

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That really doesnā€™t sound like a good idea.

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Ok! Thatā€™s cool.

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I need to tidy up my bedrroom i also need to do the gardening. Looking forward to moving out.

Possibly with a friend.

I cud do with a friend in my home. Confidence boost for both of us.

I am so bored :neutral_face:

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Moving in with a friend would be cool. I donā€™t reccomened you only eat celery for a week. thatā€™s not enough calories, just forgive yourself for binge eating and say, ā€˜ i can choose to eat healhy againā€™ and do it. donā€™t beat yourself up

@Speedy No matter what I decide to do, i canā€™t do anything until i save some money to give me options!

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Iā€™m hungry tooā€¦ I had a few eggs and some toast for dinner but Iā€™m already hungry again

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O yeah! I know. I canā€™t move either. I canā€™t study. I canā€™t do anything. Iā€™m stuck.

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hey @Zaza welcome to the forum. Please respond so we know youā€™re not a bot etc.

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Oh, that sucks. Doesnā€™t your country have student loans? I am studying high school curriculum through n oniine provider it is only 120 dollars per subject per year.

I need to get off the internet, i havnt been reading or studying all week :confused:

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I hope u get to be happy!

Idk what ur past mistakes are but ur past does not define u.

You are wat u choose 2 become :wink:

I bet u will make a friend or two in time. Maybe Try to believe it so that u can feel motivated in ur hobies and interests.

U are very frnd worthy

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Aww thanks Zoe. I think my best bet is returning to my home town and joining some mental health groups.

It just sound slike your punishing yourself. couldnā€™t you eat vegetarian balanced meals to detox, rather than just celery?

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