Yeh i totally agree with @FreeLunch
I would have violent thoughts when off meds and sometimes accompanying command voices. That was a scary time. But usually went to the hospital when it got too bad.
I can still have HI if triggered by certain people or abusive type things happening around me. Even medicated. Tonight was a bit rough cause my aunt can be a catalyst and she was over.
I also have to spend time with her tomorrow and on Xmas obviously. I just try to focus on other things and distract myself.
I am, per se, violent anyway. Its made worse by the illness. With meds I am less hostile.
I’m not violent but I am very strange off meds. Never going off them!!!
I have never been off meds… But violent… no, not me. Except towards myself, that I have been, extremely violent. But I would never hurt anybody else. I am not angry person. I am weak.
I’m non violent, but can be when I had to defend myself in hospital from hostile animals.
Worst I ever did was try to vacuum nanties off someone while delusional. Got me a flying Haldol tackle and two days in the quiet room.
When I was psychotic I wasn’t violent but the anger I felt was a whole another dimension of crazy. I told the nurses how I felt. They talked me through it! I seldom get angry and I haven’t ever been violent to anyone except myself.
People that resort to violence have issues.