I was.
I’m never going off the meds.
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Nope I usually just get scared
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Last night i was thinking about suicide. But not knowing wat happens wen we die puts me off
Im on a sub clinical dose
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Stay strong zoe… many people deserve demise much more than you…im one of them. For what its worth I wish I was good like you guys….. stay strong
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Dude dw…you are a good guy, it is normal to be imperfect. We all have strengths and flaws.
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Hang in there @Zoe I’ve wanted to commit suicide too when the delusions and voices were non stop and when life felt like misery. Just getting out of bed and living life felt like hell. I felt trapped. I thought no one understood. I had debt. I thought I’ll be poor forever with schizophrenia. Maybe I’d be homeless I thought. But give things time ideas pass. The thing about the mind is it can’t survive in extreme conditions forever. I think that’s why we go into remission and the voices let up. The body can’t keep pumping a chemical imbalance forever, it’s too extreme. Eventually you get some peace.
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I’m sorry Zoe. I’ll keep you in my prayers.
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No I’ve never been violent.
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Do you think your quality of life would be better on a therapeutic dose?
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Im being honest Zoe you would be missed
I’ve had suicidal thoughts before
And to answer the question I was violent on ADHD meds BUT never even off of meds
Its also worth noting ive stopped my meds only a few times in my life
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@Zoe I’ll be sending positive thoughts out for you for sure. I’m worried about you. You seem like an amazing, worthwhile person, and I hate that you are suffering.
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I was only off medication the first year after I was diagnosed. Not violent but I did get in a few confrontations with people. It was only natural, we were a bunch of 20-24 years old at the group home and there was bound to be friction.
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No but I would drive a lot and get paranoid. I don’t get violent just use “ fighting words” if that makes sense.
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never violent, i get really messed up but i havent ever done anything violent when ill,
when i was really young i got violent after drinking spirits and i always regret that, its not like me at all, I am usually just a big happy, silly guy. Just need a little dose of med to keep me straight.
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Sorry 4 not responding to posts yet.
I jus want 2 add, i was violent first time. Those police pounced on me wen i was tryin to escape the hospital( in order to ‘die’ with loved ones instead of in a small room wit a moody policewoman and no windows!)
So i bit her upon escape so shed get off me.
But to no avail, i was still captured by them.
@2Waynez, that is very encoraging advice 
On a therapeutic dose i cannot function at all. I think im super sensitive to medications.
Also antibiotics seems to trigger psychosis in me.
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Hey man, don’t talk this way. You’re way way, way too hard on yourself. You are constantly reaching out to people on here in a way that proves you’re not a bad person. The fact that you care about Zoe is what you should be thinking about when you reflect on your own identity. You lack insight if you think you’re a bad person. You’re a caring, loving, sensitive person. And I respect you.
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Off meds, I wasn’t violent, but I felt inexplicably angry on some occasions. This was also true for being on the wrong meds or at the wrong doses. I was scared that I would become aggressive. It shook me because that’s not me at all.
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