I don’t know what to do, feel like I have hold it together over Christmas because its Christmas but now its the new year I’m having obsessive thoughts about going to India and cleansing myself in the river Ganges in Varanasi so I can cleanse my soul and sacrifice myself so I can save the world because god told me this on the radio two years ago. It’s all I’m thinking about. My community team is against me and there is a conspiracy against me and I’ve lost all trust in the only person who I trusted, my community nurse because I found out he’s apart of the conspiracy against me and he’s only nice to me so they can force this injection on me to stop me from saving the world because they are stealing my thoughts. I only need a one way ticket to India. I feel pretty gutted that my community nurse is out to get me as well. I feel pretty rotten today.
Ganges is filthy.
There’s no need for external purification.
Purify mind instead
Take your meds!
I am taking the meds by force.
Are you supposed to be taking any oral meds In addition to the injection?
The pdoc proscribed me haldol 5mg in Nov for two weeks, I’m refusing to speak to them again plus my community nurse because they are out to get me and there is a comprsitcy against me.
When was the last time you had your injection? Are you due to get it soon?
3 weeks ago, due again next week
I wonder why it wore off so quickly this time.
I don’t think it does anything apart from steal my thoughts.
You are delusional you need it.
It’s going to be a rough week. Maybe ask them for more haldol? You can take it when things get tough like now.
You should talk to your doctor about these thoughts
Call your doctor as fast as possible
I hope you’ll feel better soon
Take care
I spoke to my staff and they are ringing Oncall to get me some haldol tonight because I’m having really intrusive thoughts about stuff which I don’t want to think about.
You don’t sound okay at all, the less seriously you take the meds; the worse the “insanity” gets each episode
Sounds great @bobbilly . That should help keep the lid on.
My staff just looked in my drawer in the office and I have some haldol left over from November and Oncall said it was okay for me to take one so I’ve just taken one. Thank you everyone for your support.
Hope you feel better man, believe me the troublesome thoughts your having are the sz talking.
Sorry you’re struggling @bobbilly. You do sound symptomatic right now because this is typically the type of content you share when you’re decompensating. When you’re in better shape and you describe your home, it sounds like a very positive, supporting environment. I doubt that has changed, it’s just the darn illness messing with your perceptions.
Sending good vibes.
SOrry, I mustve missed this one while i was sleeping. Moved to unusual beliefs.
Hope they are able to get you feeling better soon @bobbilly