I dont know if its my illness or if its the medicine but I find everything so painfully boring and dull. Even stuff I used to like, like painting and 3D modeling gives nothing now.
All I end up doing on my days off is laying in bed, sleeping or pacing/taking hour long walks. And the days I have to work, I work so slow and get distracted by how boring and unmotivating it is even now when Im working with something I like a little bit more.
Playing games, and watching movies and shows is also boring and I end up distracted. I can barely scroll through social media anymore.
This is so painful
and listening to music 