Friendship is Sacred.
.Agree.
One was getting married and invited everyone but me.
They kindof said they didnt want to be my friend because they have education and jobs and money and holidays and im a loser without those things.
Apparently another one of their old friends just sat around playing guitar all day and they did not want him as a friend eitber.
Also other stuff happened.
Also wonder if any of them knew real me and loved and cared for that or if up to nadty betrayal n stuff.
Some wanted to take from me.
As a young girl one stold my dolls and teamed other girls against me.
Nasty stuff happened .
Also my real eyes were not in my body much and other eyes were kindof acting as me naliciously as Shaggy sings wasnt me.
Also felt traumatised and no one understood or cared it seemed.
I do not have friends as such except sometimes i call 2 x or so that may be friends but dont hang out.
I have not given up hope on friendship with a better people n beings to and for me.
I had a x put me n he on adult friend finder swing site.
Set up or golly knows.
I did not want to be a swinger.
He was interest in things i was not.
From what i remember he took over my old email i was licked out of and the profile said im looking for monogamous partner and he swing partner .
He waa chatting with people around the world while i was isolated and alone kinda n without friends.
He might have pretended to be me.
He was a multimillionaire director n cattle farmer amoung other things.
He never gave me money and i paid half of the grocery bill despite i did not have much money.
We did not understand each other nor were we sexually compatible.
Tried a pen pal site to meet non sexual friends but got ghosted by people there so left.
Sharing a laugh.
Or not.
Some friends might not have same humour but still be real friends.
Loyalty.
Caring.
Supportive when can .
Enjoy each others company.
Can call them 2 am need it be and no dramazzz about it.
Have a talk .
Activities together.
Maybe playfulness together.
Been sooooooo many years since i had friends.
Although ones i once had i wonder if they were real friends.
Did they know real me and love that or want to take it and or destroy it or never knew .
Did we really know each other.
Is fancy careers and looking good most important thing to them which their frirnds must have n is that deep?
I was workaholic but not with my body .
Cant be proven as such.
Others got good but my body didnt as such.
Keep Da Faith!