Long lasting effects of psychosis... even when stable

Diagnosed Sz or Sza
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I have a habit of putting associations behind everything people say. Someone returned something to me because they didn’t have time to use it, and my brain went straight to worst case scenarios instead of taking them at face value. “They hate me,” “I’m stupid,” ect. I struggle to take anyone at face value, from family and friends, to coworkers and management. If someone at work says “oh you’re fine,” my brain goes straight to feeling like I’m getting fired.

When I was actively psychotic I couldn’t recognize that my brain is taking giant leaps over logic, but I do recognize it now.

I just wonder if my brain trained itself over the last 9 years to think this way. Why didn’t this thought process go away with the hallucinations? I chronically insert meaning and patterns into everything, and while I have insight now that these aren’t accurate or logical, I wonder if it’s just become habit.

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Yep, I’ve got this as well and my last hospitalization was in 2015.

I suppose it’s just a matter of us being cognizant that we’re doing this and try to nip it in the bud— I know for me, sometimes it works, but other times it’s like a runaway train.

CBT helps tremendously with stuff like this— did an outpatient program a few times and it really worked well for a bit. Keeping at it is the hard part though. If you haven’t tried CBT, I recommend it for sure.

Best of luck to you and here’s hoping this changes for the better for you and me :+1:

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Yes I find your experience totally understandable I had that as well many years ago.