I’ve had schizophrenia for 13 years.
In 2017, during hospitalization, an encounter with another troublesome person led me to believe that person was a god,
and for seven and a half years, I lived in a world of hallucinations and delusions.
It was an extremely harsh world; people I passed on the street seemed like enemies, as if they were saying meaningful insults about me,
birds sounded incredibly loud and shrill, and the world became distorted.
A year and a half ago, I confided in a friend and realized it was a delusion, but I was already burnt out, and have been suffering from various after-effects ever since.
Hospital treatment hasn’t been successful. I can’t find a way to recover.
Music production is my only hope, depending on my physical condition.
Recently, I’ve even developed difficulty walking, using a cane, and can barely leave the house.
There are also other loops in my life.