Hmm…? You are being very hard on yourself.
You have an illness. Don’t be so hard on yourself.
I ordered a muscle stretching book. I’m going to start stretching because I’m stiff. Hopefully I can release stale muscles. It’s nothing, but if I can be more agile then I’ll be more happy.
Just ordering the book and trying is a small victory.
Do something for yourself. Something small.
You seem to have a lot of demands on yourself? You have set the bar too high.
Bummer about the field. I thought the point of seeing the bands live was to get close.
Well, at least you had a great time.
@Turtle i remember they used to give me the square paliperidone pills and they would almost always get stuck in my throat
I have a book perennial philosophy by aldous huxley where he argues all paths lead to the same place. It has shamanism in there. A lot of non mainstream beliefs.
Bought some patchouli, what the hippies wore. My mom can’t stand it. She says it smells partly like vaporub. Alright, alright.
I’m afraid they will strangle me
Yeah it was still a lot of fun. 
How’ve you been, man?
Been awake since 4:15 Am. Im really tired but im going to try to stay awake till at least 8:30 Pm or so.
How’s it going, homeboy?
I’m ok despite my dad that has cancer. He’s been smoking for 50 years, the cigarettes got to him. He’s in the hospital now. He is seeing a doctor tomorrow.
We’ll know this week what treatment he will receive. If it’s possible to treat him that is.
Two months ago he was working. Now he has lost tremendous amount of weight and can’t do sh-it.
He would have received his pension 6 months from now.
I hope he’ll be alright but odds are not in his favor.
If you smoke now is time to quit. Those things will kill you.
Hey Leash. Im good. How’s your day going?
Oh man, that sucks. From the lungs, cancer can spread all over the body. Do they know yet if it has metastasized? I watched my mom die from cancer, just awful to watch.
I quite cigarettes in August 2020, no nicotine for me the past six years.
They are doing x-rays this week. I hope it hasn’t spread but they caught the cancer very late.
It sucks but it is what it is.
My day is going alright.
My gf left around 2 pm, after which I went to the grocery store for a few items, made a frozen pizza for lunch, been chillin ever since.
It’s been nice, especially after nine consecutive days working. This is Day 3 of my four-day weekend. After tomorrow I’ll work seven consecutive days. This schedule is rough, especially with having a few 12 hr shifts mixed in, but I need money.
The pay I’ll be getting later this week will be based on 100 hours of work, so a good amount of OT, should be nice.
Aw man, that’s unfortunate.
@Turtle are you taking the pills with water? are some of your pills big? you might use a pill splitter to half them when taking…just trying to help.
Insomnia again. 
Thanks @jukebox hope you are doing okay
I’m so sorry. That’s awful. I don’t have any words that will make it better but I care and am willing to listen if you need to vent
Thank you for your support @Lilyofthevalley!
It’s hard but all I can do is be there for him.
Again, thank you!