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my worst delusion/paranoia is the spotlight effect. It’s so debilitating for me. I can hardly leave the house because of it
I also see bugs/critters everywhere
I see people that don’t exist everywhere.
The list is long but the worst involved setting a vat full of dead masked bodies floating in water, my daughter telling me I killed her baby, spiders skittering across my feet in my bathroom, thinking everything in my bedroom was wet and if I slept there I’d drown in my sleep, seeing demons, hearing music that’s not there, hearing people outside my house who weren’t there and I thought they’d try to get in to kill me, thinking the hospital staff was plotting to kill me (I was in the area not psych ward at the time)
Currently I’m basically symptom free.
But when I’m unstable I get extremely delusional and paranoid.
I also hallucinate
I’m suffering from burnout ..
Aside psych meds,I take others,along with them like inhalers and magnesium .. Everything is on alarms ,as i can’t remember.
Burnout brought lots of other things,like visual magnifying icons,and disorganised thinking,bit paranoia ,but I’m holding still ..
I wrote about this recently but basically in short, a radio in my head made from crystallised fire, four spirits in my head talking to me and laughing at me, paranoia about gunmen attacking me at night, believing I killed my mother in law with my thoughts, believing I can control others with my thoughts, thoughts inserted into my head, thoughts hijacked out of my head, people reading my mind when I make eye contact.
Mine is seeing hooded figures, in my apartment, and they carry a upside down cross down the hallway,and look back at me and say your next. It’s very scary and it happens all day and mostly at night though.
I saw a ninja at my dad’s house one time.