Really felt like I needed one. Had worked my way off the 2mg gum recently and it was really feeling rough. I have been pretty much quit since early april.
Good news is I gave the pack to my wife, who was not pleased that i bought them, and she will not give me another easily.
I feel like I failed a bit, but it did make me feel temporarily better.
Take it one day at a time. I did it without gum because I chewed too much gum. If you’re interested in my method tell me and I’ll describe it to you
Pavlov’s dog theory. Everytime bologna gets set on the counter, smoke one. You’ll associate countertop bologna with cigarettes and eventually grow to either hate cigarettes or love bologna.
Don’t beat yourself over this, and don’t fall into the trap of thinking that everything starts new (like quit date). Those four months that you didn’t smoke not only count but if you analyze them they’ll provide valuable info for when you stop smoking again. It makes me think that journaling may be helpful (so that you can remember details).
You may have quit the gum too abruptly. It seems to me that when you decided to quit the gum and go Cold Turkey you gave yourself a psychological ultimatum: Quit or smoke. The gum was no longer an option.
I wish you success on your next try, and as I said don’t beat yourself up over this.