(mostly) verbally, i swear i’ve noticed
- just how bad i can mess up sentence pronunciation (pressured speech)
- just how bad i can mess up sentence structure (i swear everything scrambles the more i think about it and the further down i get with explaining myself)
- just how bad i can mess up word definitions, idioms and figures of speech
- how much i talk referentially about stuff i have to realize nobody else gets
- how much i joke about stuff that nobody else really finds funny
- how i do not ever realize how long i’ve been going on about something
just bothers me. no idea where to start with improving on any of this. i kind of really hate being functional enough to hold a job but being very obviously mentally handicapped enough to where people obviously pick up on this stuff and just don’t tell me anything about it cause i guess they wanna be nice. thankfully i’m at least self aware (even if to a debilitating extent!)
idk how people have regarded me as articulate for my entire life just for me to grow up and for people to like make fun of me n stuff when i’d say stuff that doesn’t make sense or. whatever else. like has it always been this obvious?! (yes)
idk what to do.