Do I seem toxic?

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I’m starting to have the delusional belief that I am essentially corrupting and I end up hurting everyone I contact.

It’s not like I go around intentionally hurting people but something about the way I am when I’m not drowning in self loathing makes me feel bad in another way.

I know a big part of it was conditioning me to believe I was all bad ..and now that that belief is in conflict with me recovering ..my brain has decided to do this.

Do I act arrogant and like a manipulative person on the forum?

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No I’ve never gotten that vibe from you at all. Just your illness talking.

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I’m glad you don’t see that in me man. Lately I’ve been a little more “myself” irl and it’s really weird not putting myself down all the time. I’m even starting to feel entitled to my opinion lol

Feels legit wrong tho.

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Nope you seem like a good man and a talented musician

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I’ve read certain posts of yours and no, you don’t seem arrogant or manipulative.

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Sorry :pensive_face:

I feel that sometimes too, it’s also a form of awareness that what we do or say can sometimes make people uncomfortable

But what I always end up realizing is that it’s usually just me in my head

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I think you are a caring person @tarnishedLotus and contribute positively here.

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Thanks @sweetpotatopie ..I try to be but just to be real …it’s not always like that in my head lol

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You are not toxic @tarnishedLotus

Just keep reminding yourself of this

I know it’s not easy

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No way i love you, youre okay.

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Thanks Zoe… I can be ok at times lol

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