everything is so bloody futile what’s the use of anything at all? life is agony suffering restlessness. dead inside, sepulchral. no reason to carry on it all comes back …schizoentropia… nothing changes inside it all comes back down to this… entropy. I want to jump out of my body fly away from the heaviness seeping into my bones.
The radio in my head plays on…it hardly ever stops…it’s stuck there it will never come out, it’s crystallised into hardness and fused to my brain and cannot be extracted…
nothing changes at all. nothing. I’m dead. I’m surprised I’m not in the grave and rotting away. my mind is rotting away so why not my body? who’s looking after my body if my mind is rotting away?
I’m sorry you’re suffering so severely. I suffered tremendously when I was young for many years so I relate the the overwhelming sense of hopelessness. Don’t give up. Life can get better.
Sorry to hear you suffer so much, hopefully you will find something that eases the pain at least a little. At best life can be bearable, even with this illness.
Sorry to hear you are suffering so much @Dika I hope coming here and talking about it mitigate the pain inside of you. Don’t lose hope and there iare always the ways to improve your life such as switching meds and exercising.
Hello Hadeda, you sound in despair however remember that what you are suffering isn’t an actual reflection of reality and you are likely suffering schizophrenia. Also, there are things that you can do… Mindfulness, rest in bed, a healthy diet, exercise and medication. Forgive what you go through, feel like a good person and focus on steps to recovery…
When I have bad symptoms, rest becomes a priority for me. I feel as though, de-stressigng regularly is the first pillar to success with schizophrenia related illnesses. I hope the difficulties ease up, and the periods of less difficulties grow. Sorry to hear it’s tough
