Exposure to people is hard

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Ive been out of the house around people for 3-4 hrs each time the last few days…sometimes multiple times aday. I am exhausted with it. I just want to chill but I have another eye doctor appointment today.

They say it gets easier but I found myself almost in a ball yesterday lol its fine but I want a break.

If it wasn’t soo serious..I would reschedule. I think I could have or can loose my left eyes vision…forum eye pressure fu cking it up.

Anyways im gonna go and the people are nice but I just feel like a walking :poop: when im around people. My ocd called a lady an orangutan yesterday..it felt bad to be so mean … and i was the most un attractive person there :sweat_smile::neutral_face:

I guess it will be ok.looking forward to a weekend without alot of interaction!!!

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Tell me you didn’t say that out loud?

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Come on bro…im fried not an ■■■■■■■

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I just realized I say alot of ambiguous sh it :sweat_smile: i need to work on my communication skills .

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Haha, ok.

Yeah, it’s hard dealing with people. That’s why I tend to isolate.

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Same man..I feel like either im judging them or they are judging me. Alot of the forum isolates too

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Truthfully i had problems going out in public UNTIL i got on meds now i hope i see someone i recognize tbh

Im lucky tho meds work

My best advise is talk to a therapist and maybe get a med change but definitely get a therapist

And good luck with the eye appointment

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I called my dentist my arch nemesis because I was listening to the voices. I felt like a fool

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I get that. I like being with people but after a bit I need a break. I need quiet alone time each day.

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To her face ?

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Yes I felt like a fool. I’ve read so many books but every once and awhile schizophrenia shows it’s hold on me

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Well after an entire week of being around people I am stuck around bunch of people at home. The landscaping people are doing works and its peoole all around my house.

Im tapped out lol

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I called my Dr private number and asked was he mad at me lol

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My doc was soo kind to me. I thought i was gonna loose my eye

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I told my GMA preacher ppl were after me.

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GMA? Whats that

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Grandma my bad

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People are actually after me…. They hate my ass lol

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I’m in the same boat

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@Turtle

I have had this same psychologist for over ten years and when I was first seeing her I told her I had a psychiatrist refuse to see me anymore because I was too difficult and complicated. At that time, she promised me she’d never do that. But still I’m sure at least ten times I’ve texted her over the years and asked if she hated me or was mad at me or thought I was ugly. And she has handled it with the best grace and charm. She reassures me. A good professional will know it’s part of the illness that’s all I meant to say

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