At the hospital and having thoughts and feelings and i feel like a roach ….the people are really nice but it seems my address and negativity overwhelmed even the nicest people
Im not even having strong ocd at the moment and I just feel wrong as a being .
It almost feels like people have an psychologically immune response to me lol it doesn’t feel like a choice
Why are you at the hospital?
Regardless I wish you a speedy recovery!
Eye is blurry …. Think it might be my diabetes
That sucks!
Listen, nobody has anything against you. Just try not to think about it. You are good!!
Yes but I try my best now to do more good than bad
I feel pretty bad and frankly irrelevant, but such is life I suppose. Perhaps it could be worse somehow.
Yea some ■■■■■■■ could harass you while youre suffering 
i wish I was better but i want to tell people to fu ck off!!! Im doing my best
I feel like i’m bad. Not in the unkind sense but the wasteful sense, not sure how to explain
Edit. I feel the opposite to a Monk who’s attained inner peace. I have a busy mind and not surprisingly a chaotic heart because of this mind which lags my productivity and contributions as a person.
I definitely undertand man…. I feel something similar too. Good thing is ..youre actually a good person. Dont let the illness cloud your thinking bro..
Thinking im gonna stop my antipsychotics…. People really do hate me its not me being paranoid
The blood sugar is threateningto take my vision and the med doesn’t even help …
i feel like youre really hard on yourself man!
I am bro…but if you could hear my thoughts you would throw me off of a skyscraper.
damn i see dude,…. heavy thoughts eh? have you tried venting to people? like irl talking mayb that can help to get stuff off your chest
Yea..I have a therapist. I think i do too much venting tho. I need to find something that actually makes it better.
Honestly..I. glad you brought that up bro. I realize i need to find something effective. The idgaf works when im alone but today I had heavy exposure to good people and my brain went nuts.
I need to purge this hate and fear in myself..fr
i see sorry, i wish i could help. do you smoke? just curious
Hey man what’s up?
Nope ..I quit a while ago. I use to vape too but I just do the pouches now. I think im gonna stop those too tho bro
Alot going on bro….alot of exposure today. Feeling like an animal.
Every manor of negative and disgusting thought. Its gonna be ok bro
Anyways…im glad youre back.
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time