Worst day ive had in a long time. Almost got beat up and kicked out. Wanted to end my life and was really close.
For all the people who have any compassion for me. How do I deal with being soo messed up and wrong…
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Hang in there you’re tough
Oh don’t get down. You can do better. I believe in you. If I were in your position I would read or listen to music. Just try to calm your mind
Not trying to dismiss your emotions. It sounds terrible. I just want to be a positive voice
I had to back down from a fight I started…im only able yo take pain form sz…. Dude said I was super lame
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Shake it off and forget about it. I know you’re a fighter.
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Thanks bro.. that means alot
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Don’t pay any mind to some guy who doesn’t understand where you’re coming from
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Anything that happened today that seems so critical will be meaningless next week.
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I love u guys lol
Perspective definitely helps… thanks guys.
I really felt like the lamest guy too. My mom was there crying looking at my dysfunctional brain.
I truly was trying to convince myself to die but ■■■■ that. Im gonna keep fighting
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That’s what I like to hear
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Right on man ….
Hey @Signless - I don’t think you’re a bad guy. I’m glad you didn’t end up in a fight. You struggle with your mental health like we all do on here. I’m sorry you’re struggling man.
Are you still suicidal or did it pass? If you still are, I can give you some numbers you can call for help
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Please don’t hurt yourself.
Things can get better.
I feel for you. I really do. Please be safe. If you can’t then a trip to the ER is a good idea.
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It passed bro… I legit appreciate it. This mi stuff can sneak up and really cause issues but im gonna keep fighting… again formal man thanks for the encouragement
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I’ve been in predicaments where people try to come at me, in the past I fought, now I back down. The anger is still there till it disapates. Now a days you touch someone you go to jail. The schz made me wanna punch people thinking they were in on everything, luckily I never hit anyone, but I came close to punching a guy for no reason at the gym. I haven’t been to the gym since. Some things we just can’t do.
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Man..I was just thinking about why it went soo wrong today. I didn’t tell anyone but I did extreme ocd/thought broadcasting exposure in my head.
When i was in a very stressful situation I thought of the worst stuff and past memories that haunt me. I let my ocd attack my mom and annihilate me.
I got through the first phase and then in the house with my mom the anger came and I went outside yelling at people.
I think I pushed to hard. My therapist wants me to do exposure but I think I failed today. Gonna take it easier next time
Anyways.. im glad im not alone in my emotional stuff. Have a great night man !
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Sometimes my voices talk badly about my mom and I love my mom. It pisses me off. Makes me feel bad. I know I would never do that. They say curse words about her.
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People with psychosis do stuff like that. I’ve lost control a few times, acted a fool. You’re actually fortunate nothing came if it, rather than thinking it complete misfortune.
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I’m glad you’re feeling better. You had a rough day. But you rose above and are doing better. That’s great. Everyone does things that are imperfect. You’re human. If you instigated it, you could always apologize and try not to act on your anger in the future.
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I almost got in a fight at McDonalds because I thought the guy there was casting spells on me or some sh!t I gave him the nastiest look and stared him down but I think I just scared some random guy and hurt his feelings I feel really bad about it but I was extremely paranoid
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