Had a good week until now. I feel like me ignoring my delusions is causing the government to be aggressive with me. I thought the TV was telling me that if I don’t pay attention to them soon then I will get hurt.
please tell me I’m delusional. Very frightened.
Yes you are delusional. The TV is not telling you that you will be hurt soon. You are safe.
Whats your meds situation like?
600 mg of clozapine at night. As far as medications I have tried, it’s certainly the most effective one.
overall I’m doing very well. Just a slip.
Sorry if I annoyed anyone with this post. I know I post them a lot. Doing a bit better now
Don’t watch TV. You should manage your externals. Moving image is a trigger.
But I have a passion for cinema. I don’t want to totally get over it especially since I’ve been doing well lately.
Maybe listen to feel good music. I’ve done a lot better listening to music instead of watching video because I think the video is always talking to me.
I get these delusions from music too. Reading does the same. But they have dropped dramatically.
You’re not annoying anyone. You’re using a support forum for support. 
I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better now.
So sorry to hear this, stay strong, sometimes it takes awhile for the meds to work. Took me a year or two to get fully clearheaded days when I went on Zyprexa if I remember right.
That is delusion… The government doesn’t care. Whether wind up hurting you or not. Kidding a bit. Humor can be a good means to combat fear.
Your scenario takes me way back. I remember that feeling.
It is YOUR anxiety that is putting on the edge of that sense of crisis. I am sorry you’re in that. It can feel very sticky and permanent… but it is not.
It WILL pass, my friend.
I was diagnosed 13 years ago or thereabout. I honestly still hit pockets of irrational fixations and fears. I don’t like it at all, but the big picture… finding the big picture to healthfully contextualize what you’re experiencing. May help.
The TV is not trying to get you. ■■■■ the government entirely, look at that noise. We’re all sort of nobodies… big world of villagers.
This is tangential, but I’d rather be a schizophrenic who had to challenge his own sense of self-importance… then be a normie narcissist or whatever I may have wound up being.
It’s worth fighting through @PhotoGuy!… it comes in waves… Try to remember how good you have felt when it is bad… and remind yourself to be responsible when you are feeling good. It’s the only way to constrain the potential confusions. Big picture… not big picture of the world, but big picture of the SELF.
Our brains are sensitive in ways science still doesn’t understand. Sort of like a mental anemia.