Like if I met myself in a bar I’d probably punch myself in the face and think I deserved it,
Anyone else feel this way?
In fact I’d probably punch myself repeatedly shouting ‘how could you do that’ & ‘why did you do that’ , I’d say ‘you are so stupid’ ‘i hate you’ you are a complete fk up and you don’t deserve to live, I’d say like ‘why are you even here’ you are a waste of space, it gets worse after that.
Maybe I should try talking to myself in the mirror or put my name on a punchbag or something, try and get my anger out
I’m not sure how else to deal with this, it’s not voices per se but it is something on the other realm of my brain that hates the inner self, idk if I can explain it any better
Self-loathing is an intense, persistent dislike or hatred of oneself. It involves deep-seated feelings of worthlessness, inadequacy, and a belief that you are fundamentally flawed or undeserving of happiness. [1, 2]
How it Manifests
Self-loathing goes far beyond occasional self-doubt or momentary frustration. It typically shows up as: [1, 2]
A relentless critical inner voice: Constant mental berating over mistakes or perceived flaws.
Perfectionism: An impossible standard where anything less than flawless feels like a complete failure.
Social comparison: Habitually measuring yourself against others and finding yourself lacking.
Excessive shame: Internalizing past traumas, rejections, or unrealistic expectations. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
The Impact on Well-Being
While not an official standalone mental health diagnosis in the DSM-5, self-loathing is a very common and painful symptom of conditions like depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder (BPD). Over time, it can fuel isolation, self-punishment, and even substance abuse. [1, 2, 3, 4]
How to Cope
If you are struggling with self-loathing, the cycle can be interrupted. Strategies include: [1]
Therapy: Working with a mental health professional using modalities like Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) or Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) can help reframe negative self-image.
Practicing self-compassion: Actively challenging your harsh inner dialogue and learning to treat yourself with the same kindness you would show a friend.
Identifying triggers: Acknowledging what situations or thought patterns precede your negative self-view so you can address them. [1, 2, 3]
For immediate, confidential support or to find a therapist, you can reach out to local mental health resources or visit Mental Health America and the Cleveland Clinic for professional insights. [1, 2, 3]
It’s really hard to live up to things when we get squashed between the disease and the meds. All we can do is try our best with the circumstances we have.
I had a lot of self hate at the time of my first psychosis. I had issues with my achievements, skills and how I looked.
I overcame that though. Comparing to others is a mistake. Just try to do the best you can with what you’ve got, and don’t kick yourself if you don’t sucseed at first. You are worth just as much as the next guy.
At some time I had dislike for myself too, because I believed bad things my bro was saying about me that I’m trash, a good for nothing
I started to love myself when I stopped playing a role to be accepted, when I decided to act with myself like I would for someone else, when I started to wear and say whatever I wanted and acted as weird and crazy as I wanted
What I didn’t like was the previous version of myself, but the new me I created in high school I love it (I became more calm after high school, I stopped saying weird things all the time but it’s still a version of me I appreciate and it’s probably more authentic)
I advice you when you or someone else is harsh with yourself, think what you would say to someone else if someone said that to them and tell that to yourself every time it happens
You could buy a book that learns to have a good self esteem (usually when you have a good self esteem you have love for yourself)
Try to take care of yourself
Wear what you want , do things that make you happy, surround yourself with kind people (not the type that put you down), if you need help ask for help
its not all the time, I try and think good about myself, it changes with my moods, I try and not think this way but it Is hard, I am my own worst critic but when I do something I am happy with it makes a big difference so I am trying to extend the happy times,
There is things in my life that I am not happy about and I wish were different, i blame myself that I haven’t achieved what I’d like in my life, I feel like I have missed a lot & that there is not enough time left.
I’m sorry you’re going through that. I wanted to achieve big things too - I wanted multiple kids and to be a doctor. None of that happened for me. I have step kids but they’re not close to my daughter and that stings. Life just happens sometimes in a way that’s out of our control.
and you don’t deserve to live, I’d say like ‘why are you even here’ you are a waste of space, it gets worse after that.