I’m not particularly sad or feeling bad emotions
But I feel like I need change
I think about buying new clothes, dying my hair, I want to travel
The new thing I’m gonna do soon is have Creole lessons (I paid the first amount to reserve my place It starts 3rd March)
I don’t feel at my place where I am
I don’t hate the city where I live in, there are interesting activities
But I don’t like the people (a lot of young people here act like thugs It makes me feel unsafe to wear what I want)
And it’s not that safe (there had been shootings in some parts of the city)
It’s a while I want to move out (I already said that I want to live in French Caribbean but I think if I lived in Normandy or another good place I would feel much better already)
I can’t go live at my dad’s home(he lives in Normandy)because he’s dirty and mean and he wouldn’t drive me much to other place than his village
I couldn’t handle live with him too long I think
My mom asked to move out but I don’t know how long will it take for them to give her a place to move out
I would love to live in Versailles (it’s one of the places she asked to move out there)
So I don’t know, there’s something missing in my heart
I don’t know if it was already like that for a while, if it’s withdrawals after this toxic job
I don’t really feel empty but almost
Anyone have advices ?