I’m so anxious since earlier
I watched a video where the youtuber talked about racism and bullying and since then I’m anxious
It made me remember what I was having fun saying to people from my family when I was younger (something similar to n*gga Something that if a White person says it’s racism but if it’s a Black person it can be ok)I’m half Black
And I don’t know because I said that last time I was in French Caribbean I started to be anxious that other people could have heard me and hate me now, even though I was joking
The talk about bullying made me anxious too as a person that was bullied
It’s a couple of hours I’m anxious
I meditated but I’m still anxious
And I started to be like I want to go in French Caribbean now, I don’t want to wait
Even though I didn’t finish my contract at my non toxic job (my job during lunch time)
I don’t know I just have enough to suffer
And more I’m looking forward to go in French Caribbean and more I’m like it’s in a long time I go
My mom and bro keep criticizing my choice to go in French Caribbean (they even criticized the fact I bought Creole lessons)
My bro even said that he would prefer me to go in Thailand
My sister answered she prefers me to go in French Caribbean, at least I’m not alone
