I hesitate if I stay one more whole year in France mainland so I keep doing my part-time job and can save money faster
Or if at the end of this scholar year, when my contract finishes I go in French Caribbean at my grandma’s home
It’s a while I struggle and I felt much better in French Caribbean (even if there had been issues at some time)
I have a financial aid right now and my doctor will make disability papers for me so maybe I will have more money
So even if I have difficulties finding a job or it’s difficult for me to work I should have enough money to survive and to save money
I feel like my mental health would be much better in French Caribbean, I talk with my psychiatrist online most of the time so I don’t need to change psychiatrist
But I don’t know I feel like I’m not legitimate to stop working for a bit of time(at least the time I find another job), I feel like I’m not legitimate to leave in French Caribbean and I’m scared it wouldn’t help me(even though I felt better last time I went in French Caribbean even though I had some symptoms because I didn’t have medication at this time)
I feel like the family pressure is put on me, and I feel like I’m not legitimate to try ways to feel better (I don’t know if it’s the last months suffering that make me feel like that)
I have enough to suffer, I don’t want to struggle another year
Of course, I know moving out will not resolve all my issues but I think it would help my well being to increase
I need to see a therapist and a sophrologist once there so I can keep improving my well being there