I just have today and the weekend left before needing to come back work
I said that before but I feel exploited at my current job, the director of the school I work to threatened to fire me when I tried to improve my working conditions
I feel anxious every morning before going to work and I cried a lot because this job made me feel bad
Since the beginning I don’t plan to do this job all my life, it’s just to save money
When I noticed it was making me feel bad I thought about resigning
My family doesn’t want to tho
I tried to improve my working conditions but I still feel bad before going to work and at work
I asked to change work place but they said no
Because of all of that I’m anxious going back at work
It sounds like you dislike the job. I wouldn’t do it if I were you.
Audre Lorde famously defined self-care not as luxury, but as a crucial act of political warfare and self-preservation for marginalized people. As an sz i think you need to stand up for yourself and protect your mental state.
It’s not really the job that I dislike but the conditions
Maybe if I was working in another school I would feel better
My mom said I was just put in a bad school
I was really eager to resign at some time but I have so much family pressure to not resign
I also noticed I’m going closer of my saving goals (I just need to work one last month to have enough money to do one working holiday And at the end of the scholar year (+2 months of holiday paid) I will have enough money for 2 working holidays
So I’m like maybe I should just put up with that just a bit more
I felt really better during this sick leave, I was hoping it never finishes
At the same time, something that I dream about is closer right on the corner
And I feel like my pain is illegitimate, like I’m exagerrating (probably because of the way my family reacts when I’m not ok)
So I feel like that I should just put up with that, that it’s a must
But honestly I would like to just resign and stay at home for a while to reset
But at the same time I’m like I will lose the right for unemployment financial aid if I resign now, and I will lose all the efforts I made so far
So I don’t know I’m confused because if I resign now I take care of myself, of my mental health but if I keep going I will have something that is good for my mental health too (because I don’t feel that good in France mainland I would like to either go in French Caribbean or another country)
I would hang in there. But make some efforts to guard your mental health status while you’re at work. Remember to use breathing techniques every time you get stressed out.