Because I don’t feel well today, I had an appointement with a doctor
He asked me about the medication I take every day (Risperidone), he asked why I take it and I answered “I was hearing voices”
I felt ashamed when I said that, my voice became more quiet
I don’t know if it’s because I was scared someone from my family would hear it
But I know it’s stupid to be ashamed to say that to a doctor, a doctor will not judge me
Am I the only one that felt like that ?
No. It’s not easy to communicate the diagnosis to others.
I only tell people I can really trust if it serves a purpose that they know.
I don’t worry about my doctor though, they probably heard and seen it all.
I didn’t tell I had psychosis to some people from my family because my sister has a bad image of schizophrenics, my dad is a mean person that said something hurtful to me when I said what my medication is for and mentioned schizophrenia, my bro says mean things too
I just said to my mom and my Godmother
But even if I was a bit scared of people reactions at first I said that to some people online and these people didn’t react badly so I felt like I was more confident to say that but finally I’m still scared
I guess it’s not the same to write it and say it aloud
You shouldn’t be ashamed and I’m glad that this community can support you
Thank you for your words
Yes, I shouldn’t but I guess the stigma around it is what makes me ashamed
I was just in a seminar and I came clean with them about the fact that I’m schizophrenic and they were all proud of me for being real with them and open. The stigma does exist. I mean I saw the air in the room leave when I admitted it to them for the first time, but my behavior and demeanor speak louder than stigma. You have to be brave.
So for you if I behave well, I am a kind person it should be okay?
I noticed I became weaker these last years
I was much more brave in high school
I started to weaken after entering in a university and living alone in a new city
I’m scared for a lot of things
I’m scared to travel(even if at the same time I want to travel), I’m scared of people opinions about my sexual orientation, my clothes, my mental health issues, about the fact I don’t have the typical French face
I became a scaredy cat these last years
I’m sorry that you’re worried about those things. Shonda rhimes says we shouldn’t care what other people think. Maybe take that to heart. Other people’s opinions don’t matter. Only your own does. But you have to be true to yourself and honest with yourself and good.
I guess I became scared about other people opinions because I was mocked, and my family keeps saying hurtful things (for example about my sexual orientation), put pressure on me to do as they want or to believe what they want
I was hurt a lot of times so I guess I want subconsciously to protect myself
But I agree other people opinions shouldn’t matter
I’m sorry if family hurts you..
My sister struggled with my mother when she came out. So I know what it’s like to some extent
They’re not really against me but says hurtful things (I will tell you what my sister said in PM)
My bro has fun saying “when you act/become normal? “ and keep talking about me finding a man even though I said I love women I correct him all the time
And when my siblings says hurtful things my mom doesn’t defend me
My mom sometimes says “ew” when I talks about something and then when I’m angry she says “just joking”
That’s all pretty rude. They’re treating you like a second-class citizen when there’s nothing wrong with homosexuality at all. You should be proud to be yourself. Half of my sub stack is lesbians. They’re pretty cool people
Yes, my mom often said it’s just a phase too
When my Godmother asked if I still love women,my mom asked me what is the answer
I was offended and told her if I loved women one day I will not stop loving women
It’s tiring to be confronted about what makes me me all the time
Have you ever been in love? Did you ever seriously date someone in front of them?
Maybe their tune will change when you have a serious partner
At some time I almost dated a woman, we had dates and we kissed each other
I said that to my family and I talked about her several times
For example when talking about restaurants I said I went to an Indian restaurant for Valentine’s Day with her
I also said she offered me a watch that I would like to wear but it’s too large for me
I really do think they’ll change their opinion if you start seriously dating someone or even get married. Then they’ll have to meet her and deal with the reality of the situation
Maybe
They’re not really against me dating a woman, but they say hurtful things
I hope they will stop
Tell them how you feel. Be clear with them
Aight
I don’t think my siblings would care
But my mom is the more understanding
She watches LGB series/movies with me(gay or lesbian)
If at least my mom act more nice I would feel better