I’m a pretty grateful person and I watch Hermes hauls on YouTube but while at first I just watch it for entertainment it begins to get to me. Especially because the lifestyle seems so easy to obtain. It seems like everyone on the internet is rich, even though I know it’s not true. It brings me distress to think about it. I know how these women are obtaining their lifestyle and it’s through hypergamy. I come from a pretty easy background and am afraid I won’t be able to maintain it. It bothers me not because I want to be rich, it’s just because I don’t want to be uncomfortable. and who knows? maybe I’ll be able to hold down a job one day . Sometimes I feel like it’s a pipe dream though. I don’t even want all of these things. I’ve just been scared by different people out of getting disability and keeping jobs that I can only keep for 3 to 6 months eventually to quit. I think part of it is my OCD trying to avoid what is uncomfortable and it’s my compulsion to search these videos. The first time I went to get help at the hospital. they diagnosed me with OCD and then Schizoaffective the second time only after I came home.
Do you know why you only keep jobs for 3-6 months? if you know the reason why maybe you can change it. I’ve had multiple jobs where I’ve only lasted one or two days and I’ve had my current job 15 years. When I was 17-19 years old I couldn’t hold a job for more than 3 months and I had like 16 or 17 different jobs. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 19 and I got a job three years later and I stayed four years before I got fired. So things change. I’ve had my current job all this time but I’m not the greatest worker and before this job I didn’t get along with many people. Yet I stayed. Maybe you could make some basic changes in the way you work and get along with people and maybe you’ll be able to hold a job for years. It’s possible.
And you know as well as I do you shouldn’t compare yourself to other people and especially people on the internet where peoples lifestyles are often faked or exaggerated.
I sure hope so I don’t think I have a choice but to work. I’m not sure why I can’t keep a job. I think it’s my anxiety and my perfectionism but it’s like a mix of things. I’m looking for a part time job right now. Maybe that will help. And I know i’m not sure why I compare myself either.
I have trouble holding a job too. I think perfectionism has to do with it
I think I just am going to give up for a while. I’m burning myself out.
@anon36616321 are you aware of the app “Boo”?
I think you might like it. Great way to make friends
I’ve heard of it. Don’t they use like a personality test? Right now I’m on Ace Space for Asexual friends and Hiki for Nuerodivergent friends.
Yeah, they use personality tests. Enneagrams.
It’s actually pretty fascinating
Oh its a friends app. Nice
It’s both dating and friends
Check it out!
Thanks. I’ll check it out.
What I like about it is that there’s both swiping for dating and friends, and also like a section for posting publicly on any hashtag. You can direct message anyone whose post you read. So it’s a great way to connect based on similar interests or opinions