Today I ran away

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This morning towards 3 am when I went to the toilet I was walking weirdly, like if I could fall

It made me glad, I was like I will have an excuse to not go

But later when my mom called to wake up I felt a bit weak to be honest, I was shaking but it was ok

I ate my breakfast

But then I didn’t leave my chair to prepare myself, I felt like paralysed

My mom was like “Go dress” and I answered “I don’t want to”

Time passed and it was the time to go at work and I was still on my chair

My mom started to be angry at me but I didn’t go

My bro will surely criticize me when he will wake up though

I have the number of a social worker and my mom told me to call my doctor first and only if there’s no appointement soon to call her doctor

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I called my doctor and there’s no appointement before Tuesday

I called the other doctor that knows me and there’s no appointement before Monday in the evening and they told me to go see my usual doctor (I shouldn’t have been honest when she asked me if I see another doctor)

So I have no one to go and I’m really not ok

I think about going to see another doctor in my city

Or take an appointement with the first psychiatrist I find online

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i think you should see another doctor yes. hope your doing ok @Vaiana you really dont deserve to be under this kind of stress. Being pushed and pushed is what causes psychosis.

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Thank you for your message

I hope I will not have psychosis, I forgot to take my medication one or two days

And recently I’m not motivated to take my medication

At the same time I thought seriously to stop taking my medication so I’m hospitalised and don’t have to go at work

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I wouldn’t instigate an episode. I’m sorry you’re going through this

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Thank you

I hope to have an appointement with a doctor soon, not later that this weekend

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Please take your meds. See whatever Dr can see you first

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Try to remember taking your meds.

Set alarms on your phone and mark it down if you can.

No you don’t want to go to the hospital

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