I went for a walk down my street with my dog by my house.
There is a wooded lot across the street from my house and as I was walking my dog on the sidewalk I quickly noticed a blurry object in the corner of my eye.
I turned around and saw a young woman hunched over sitting down looking down at her phone smiling.
She was sitting down in the dirt among the trees.
I said to her “ oh man you scared me”
I was startled by her sudden appearance
When I got to the end of the street I crossed over to the other side of the street.
I looked to see if I could spot her but saw nothing.
No sign of her!
This happened to me before, when I hallucinated a lame crippled girl limping about the neighborhood years ago.
Hey @Wave . Sorry about this. I have had very few hallucinations during my time as a sz, even less visual. But I had one once where my mom said something about how they used to have spiders hanging somewhere or something and then I went in the garage and saw thise like transparent, old computer graphic like spiders hanging from the garage. I tried putting my hand through the webs they were dangling from and it passed right through, so I knew it wasnt physically there.
No less disconcerting when you are having simulation delusions, though. It just fed them more.
Anywho, whether it was real or not in your case, I’m sorry that you have to deal with thoughts that are disconcerting to you.
I hallucinated my whole family including my mom and people I used to work with in the psych ward. The people that worked there called on them to feed them so they were real. I’m beginning to believe I hallucinate different heads on people it’s the only conclusion I can reach. But they all had my friends and families voice. So I would have to hallucinate heads on people that look real no glitches and hallucinate voices. That’s why sometimes I believe something otherworldly is going on. How can a person do that?
Doesn’t it suck not to be able to trust your instincts and senses? When I’m fully psychotic it’s very obvious and sometimes I remember my hallucinations sometimes not. But when I’m doing fairly well and the psychosis is trying to take me I get an increasing amount of tricks of the eye, questioning what’s real around me, saying things to my spouse that make no sense. It’s a hard row to hoe. Best wishes to you. Maybe a talk with the doc is in order.
