I think too much..therefore I am not here to live life. Famous monk
Its hard to actually look at hatred…so I intoxicated myself with thinking
Its hard being an actual whipping boy ..impossible to bare unblinking
Too much of life is full of strife ..anger ..fear and pain
Soo become cruel …play the fool..but in truth little is gained
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Joke: how did the great atrocities happen? Simple …rebranding lol
Ive fed my abusers enough…have a good day
I’ve started becoming more stern and down outlook to try my best to stretch all my money
Hope your doing ok man if you wanna vent I’m here
That’s why I abandoned eastern studies because they’re too pessimistic starting from the central premise that life is suffering. It’s easy to look through the lens of everything is suffering the more you read books and study eastern philosophy. I eat food I enjoy, go get a frozen coffee I enjoy, go for a ride I enjoy, read philosophy books I enjoy. Schopenhauer said we have a will that craves desire constantly and we pursue it so we suffer. Without critical thought one could adopt this philosophy. But I know from experience me and a million other people don’t feel like doing anything and doing stuff you feel like you have to suffer through it until it becomes habit or you adopt a meaning where you find purpose in your doings. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You make beautiful music. Focus on your positives. We all have an inner critic that judges what we do built in our psyche. Maybe meditate and practice thankfulness. I wish you well.