having a weird episode what on earth is it? voices telling me bad things then I suddenly descended into gibberish and pacing and shaking and flailing and getting all dis dis mixed up up up. and not understanding what’s going on. I … I … don’t know what s going on I am compos mentis under a veil of compulsive gibberish and until now when I’m calming down but still feel fragile like I want to descend again again… again . wtf is wrong with me??? what’s going on? any idea anyone? is it psychosis or am I ha hypocrite and liar because I watched the soloist a lovely movie about sz guy and now is that why I having episode? dunno am I a liar and hypocrite or is is it real episode and is it psychosis? what is it? help…
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Sometimes psychosis can be addicting. It’s like the universe is paying attention to little old me. I’m special. I get it sometimes. Because life is mundane. Shut off the TV and put down the phone and we’re living in Little House on the prairie.
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I don’t understand…addicting? Little house on prairie? What did I even go through tonight? I’m a little better now, was sleeping and now I’m going to sleep more - it’s 02:41.
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I think you are having an episode of psychosis. Probably you need an adjustment of medications. Trying to get more sleep could be helpful.
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@green5 Is it psychosis when I was aware what was going on? It was like there was the aware me under a layer of uncontrollable babble
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Sorry to hear this @Dika i really feel sad for this.
Did you have a med adjustment recently that might be why
I remember you went to the hospital.
Hope things improve for you soon enough. 
Try to get sleep if you can, i agree with @greenlife231
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You’re not a hypocrite and you’re not a fraud. I had those feelings when I was younger. Felt guilty about them. Haven’t thought about it in a long time. It seems like a common enough thing for somebody with this illness.
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