My PQ isn't high enough

Diagnosed Sz or Sza
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I feel subdued today. because I feel like a liar. like I faked psychosis. my PQ (psychosis quotient) isn’t high enough to qualify for schiz… schiz is for the gifted ones. I only seem to suffer from depression and self harm. affective things.

what psychosis do I have? internal voices? a radio and spirits in my head? a mission? what’s that? nothing! nothing near hearing external voices clearly or being hunted down by FBI. or seeing things that aren’t there. or seeing codes in everyday objects.

my pseudo psychosis doesn’t qualify at all. this makes me sad. sad for having labelled my psychosis as psychosis and getting the drs convinced it is too.

maybe I don’t deserve the status of schiz. trying to suck up to the big guys, the gifted guys… I’m a puny nobody…:pensive_face:

how do I describe the radio in my head though? the spirits? the mission I had and maybe still have? probably just normal …or pseudo wannabe behaviour…

and while thinking of this and typing it, I burnt my rice…klutz!! :see_no_evil_monkey: almost spoilt our meal…

Don’t feel so good right now…

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You have psychosis. Undoubtedly

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I mean you don’t fake it.

I’ve been through that

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Thanks for the reassurance @Om_Sadasiva

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you can’t fake it, its impossible, the dr’s just observe behaviours when they monitor a person, maybe its different from when I was first admitted.

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From what you’ve posted all these years, you definitely have psychosis @Dika

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i would agree that you have psychosis. Sometimes it can make us doubt it though

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