Because I’m depressed right now and have been for a long time. I’m schizoaffective depressive type. I was so stupid not to take the offer the dr gave me of antidepressants yesterday! I was stupid enough to say I’m not depressed when of course I have almost nonstop depression. Sza is a b***h. My house has gotten too much for me to keep up cleaning, I’m overwhelmed with dust and dirt when all I want to do is hide in bed or hurt myself. 
I don’t know what to do. Hubby doesn’t understand. He thinks I don’t care for him. I do but I can’t show it properly. I don’t have the strength he needs and expects from me. I’m a useless mentally ill nobody
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You are not useless at all; you have a very challenging health condition
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I am also schizoaffective depressive. Are you taking meds? Can you go to a crisis center?
Sorry to hear that. Find the strength to tell someone, either your treatment team or husband. Everyone has their moments, even the mentally well…
Yes I’m taking meds but only antipsychotics and a mood stabilizer not an antidepressant. Next time I see dr I’ll ask him for one. Maybe it’s best…
I don’t think we in South Africa have crisis centres. I’m not sure, never heard of one. Only hospitals, outpatients depts and mental health organisations
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Well I hope you get to feeling better and see your pdoc. It’s hard I know. I’ve been depressed lately. Don’t give up.hugs
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I hope you feel better.
I remember when I was off meds I became very harsh on myself. I judged myself all the time and was the worst enemy to myself. Now I realize that It’s not that you were very moral that way it’s just that you were sick. So you need to take meds and on an enough dose as well.