i feel everytime i go out people are talking about me and judging me. i feel like there is a spotlight on me at all times and it really sucks. also sucks that i feel all my online activities is being surveilled, which is the most annoying one because i have a phobia and potential ptsd with getting hacked. i also have this problem that im being chased down by agents and that everyone is out for me. im also terrified of sinning and that someone is going to harm me and my family and i replay these situations in my head over and over again. not sure what to do.
this sucks because it makes it hard to get things done and by the end of the day filled with worrying im exhausted all through being anxious and scared of these things.
Don’t worry because it is 100% definitely paranoia and nothing else. There is always a small risk of being hacked for everyone but most people go with the benefit of the doubt and take a positive view that their account is safe. Likewise, why on earth would agents be after you? You would have to have done something seriously wrong and against the law. Even then agents are for things like terrorism or major drug dealers etc. I’m sure you’re none of these things. Don’t worry about sinning. The only perfect being would be God if you believe in that sort of thing. Everyone else goes wrong even if they are mostly legal. I’m sure you are way above average. By the sounds of things you need to be more positive and self loving. A doctor can help with the rest.
i feel a lot better now that i got these things out and received amazing feedback. i think youre right i need to value myself more than just beating myself up for no good reason. if worrying helped i think everyone would do it, it just adds unnecessary stress. i feel better today because im getting my depot med on my arm, so hopefully that can help.