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I know you’re struggling right now Ducky. You have people that care about you, in real life and on the forum. Keep fighting, things can and WILL improve for you.
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If you are struggling please reach out for help.
Contact your doctor ASAP
There are lots of people that care about you @Ducky
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I thought I would feel suicidal forever but I don’t feel suicidal at all now. It took a crisis like you’re having, where I gave up and let go of a lot of things I wanted. In a sense, part of me did die by surrendering the struggle. It took time to grieve, but I emerged happier than before.
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Sounds like you are very depressed @Ducky
Please contact your doctor ASAP
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Feeling empty is absolutely fine unless you desire to feel full, in which case the suffering of ‘not feeling full’ is a problem. So emptiness itself is not the problem, but your resistance to emptiness and the desire to feel differently is causing the pain. Emptiness by itself does not cause pain.
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oh no…you seemed to be doing so well? please stop hurting yourself…you are loved.
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Im okay now thinking of staying with my parents for some rest and a change of scenery. Ive been up all night with hubby but im ok
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oh thank goodness…yes, go see your parents that love you.
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hope your doing ok ducky 
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Hi Ducky, that sounds miserable but remember that the situation can always change no matter what. Your treatment team is the start of a new beginning with hope for the future. Never give up… you are stronger than you think!
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I am so sorry you are struggling @Ducky 
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dont leave us we really like you
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I’ve come to my parents place today, but the thoughts are back. Atp, idek what to do anymore. Gonna ask if I can double dose the antidepressants tomorrow when my care worker visits
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I literally kept hubby awake all night he is such a godsend these days. Im feeling low but ok ive slept some @POET
Yes @Mr.Apple ask if you can increase your antidepressant that could really help. I had mine doubled to 20mg but i still struggle unfortunately. Hope it works for you
Thanks @Zoe @Vinegar i like all of you too. Im sorry i go down this rabbit hole so much
@Mouse1977 yea mh team will speak to them tomorrow , thanks
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No need to apologise
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I got out of having a mh assessment today.
Im going for a walk with hubby and playing music today. I didnt wake up again until 3pm so i will prob be up again tonight. But this happens i get thoughts and feel empty then im down that rabbit hole again , its no good ive got to stop this its no good
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Ive got to utilise the diazapam more
@Mr.Apple i hope you feel better soon
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Thank you, i’m doing my best to just distract myself - trying to find what i can pursue to regain employment for now. Likewise,
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