I’ve had 3 episodes of psychosis. The first lasted 2 weeks, the second 6 weeks and the last one about 12 weeks. The last one was dreadful, full of voices, delusions and hallucinations. The first episode happened after stress and drug use. Which then likely triggered schizophrenia. The second episode came after stress with no drug use and the last one involved the use of cocaine. Both relapses happened when off of antipsychotics. Both times I made it for about 5 months off of Olanzapine. Before the last one I was on 5mg Olanzapine for about 2 years and felt very normal on that dose. After I relapsed I was put on 15mg Olanzapine. That was 2 years ago and I have now worked my way down to 7.5mg and have no symptoms except for the odd unusual thought.
I currently have slight side effects which are a complete lack of labido and the other one is that I am less athletic then I was when on 5mg Olanzapine. I have been exercising for a year and can only run at 10 minutes per mile. Although I can run 5 miles. So my fitness isn’t dreadful but it gets me down it’s not as good as it should be.
As far as I see it, I have 3 options. 1 stay as I am. I should mention that I work full time, have a social life and see my son regularly. But again lack the drive to pursue women how I did before the last episode. 2 risk going down to 5mg Olanzapine and possibly relapse. I tried 5mg on Saturday and woke up feeling very different and wasn’t sure if I heard a voice. I was anxious though. Think I could have also been having withdrawals. 3 I have been thinking of trying Brexipiprazole.
What I am aiming for is an improvement in labido and better results with physical fitness and strength training.
Any advice would be really appreciated! As this is playing on my mind. My life isn’t bad but it’s just missing that drive. Appreciate your thoughts just wondering if I should play it safe or risk becoming unwell for more!
Also sorry for the long post. And thank you again for any input!