I’m starting to do too much work on projects. I’ve been up since 4am working on music and coding.
I love it but I’m not 20 anymore. I can’t do 13 hour days 7days a week anymore. I’m Soo afraid because I think the characters can hear my brain and dislike me and send subtle messages that I’m bad.
I have to find a way to have down time again. Before I was on abilify the delusion was bearable but now I don’t even do tv anymore. Same with videogames with a lot of story line.
I want to learn to relax sometimes 
Im starting to think that the 10-15 hr days might start to effect me negatively if I don’t find a way to chill
Ironically..the app I’m finishing up has a measure for rest from projects. It’s a part of the overall wellbeing score on the app.
If I start watching tv …I need to know I’m not actually broadcasting my thoughts and it’s in my head 
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I’d avoid triggers even though tv for most people can be really relaxing entertainment. Reading is too intense for me even, so often if I get into reading I’ll get insomnia and racing thoughts. Lots of videogames dont have characters. I play videogames a lot but I dont have your set of symptoms.
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Yea …I am gonna definitely do something man. I just realized I’m either dealing with OCD/sz or I’m working on stuff …
Got to play at some point …
Thinking maybe become a master at project cars 2
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Hey if you feel you need the goal listen to yourself.
Im the other way I like to be completely free of any burdens. A long term goal for me gives me such a desire to escape, I do best with nothing on my plate. I do small necessary projects like around the house but I usually find a quick cheap way to get it done.
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Have you ever played human fall flate?
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It’s like portal on steroids… And that actually sounds nice right now but I am wired the other way . I love to keep busy
human fall flat feels so difficult. I think I got to like level 10 but the puzzles get serious. The controls are kind of hard for me too.
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I was playing a portal mod earlier this month but got stuck
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Yea…human fall flate is hard. I think I got somewhere around 10 too. Or I think maybe 5 whatever one the crane that you need to break down the wall. And do that harder puzzle after.
I prob could have solved it but I got fed up lol @Agent101g
I’m still on portal reloaded. I beat 1and 2 but haven’t started playing the reloaded version.
I guess there is a time travel element to it or something @Rainstorm
Or actually I might not have beaten 2
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I beat 2 with my cousin but got stuck on 1 and the mod I think it was reloaded
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