Not feeling any better still angry still moody and peeved off at the world right now. I don’t want to see anyone or talk to anyone or be around people in general right now. Been in my room for a little while avoiding family too, sometimes I need my private time alone. I was with my mom all day today thrifting and need a break. I am so depressed and angry annoyed and frustrated with people and everything I am going through right now health wise. I was losing then I am not losing weight then start losing again I mean I gained like 10 pounds water weight in three days it seems. But it has to be water weight nobody can gain actual fat gain in three days impossible, unless you consume and enormous number of calories. so, there’s that I am angry about and people judging me when they are not perfect themselves and they think they are better than me and judge me lots of times, they look a lot worse or fatter than me and they want to point fingers they need to look in the mirror before pointing and laughing at me just saying. I feel people are laughing at me again and I know they are because why would people would be looking right at me when their laughing that’s why I know they are laughing at me. And I want to break their jaw with a bat that’s the thoughts I am getting when I hear laughter and especially when I think it’s aimed at me. I would never act on these intrusive evil thoughts even if I would get away with it somehow, I believe Karma would catch up to me and make me pay for what I did and I would regret it. But there are always consequences to every bad action and reaction. So, when I get those thoughts, I shake it off and just get those thoughts out of my mind or it will eat me up inside and the only one I am hurting is myself not them.
Hope you feel better soon
I hope things start getting better for you soon
I hope things turn around for you.
Oh,I’m sorry people are mean to you and that you suffer so much recently
Maybe try journaling without censoring yourself to express your emotions so you don’t bottle up them
Working out is good to relieve anger too
I hope you’ll feel better soon 
Maybe find a healthy , safe, legal outlet for that anger and emotions such as Boxing Classes or jogging or painting and therapy .
Hope you will find a way to
On how to heal and know oneself and master one s emotions and have compassion yet firmness with oneself or learn to with guidance or mentoring or support.
Hope you find good outlet.
They are cruel and evil. Keep composed and try lemon balm tea or a natural sedative… Nothing from a vitamin store but a natural plant. Meditate and don’t worry about weight gain but try fasting. You deserve better and you just need to work on keeping calm
thanks everyone for the helpful advice I will try what you said @mouse1977 about the Lemon Balm tea or a natural sedative. I try not to worry about weight gain but I do can’t help it I worked so hard to lose only to gain what I lost back that’s where the frustration comes in. And depression and paranoia are working on me as well as anger issues.Yes I think most people are evil dont get me wrong there are good people but far in between the evil ones. I always attract them for one reason or another and just wish they’d stay away from me I don’t need those kinds of people in my life my life is hectic as it is. I soak up others’ emotions and feelings too which I don’t like either, but I do for example being around negative people makes me negative somehow. I need more positive uplifting people around me that don’t pray for my downfall or hinder me or wish evil on me and talk bad about me.Also where do you get a natural sedative at what store or do you buy it online @mouse1977 ?
I understand the feeling. Natural sedatives need growing. You could try buying a plant online or growing some seed. I have some growing naturally in my back garden and it made me sleepy when I brewed the leaves! Alternatively do something calming like half an hour back into bed and think your problems over