Well, I hope me and my mom are okay. We are

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I don’t believe I can see signs from the universe or any god of sort. I’m seeing and noticing some specific annoying connections, not a ton for this one, definitely noticeable though. That involve a dream my mom had a long time ago, me, her, and her mom. Who has passed. A pink Cadillac, and Dolly Parton music.

I mean seriously. I am going to try to do stand up comedy sets about my mom one day.

So I think recently, this means either I’m dying or she is, which isn’t true annnd we’re all dying and that’s a human collective experience (and I am not in The Truman Show life and I didn’t make up everything around me).

Because one thing I know

that is true,

is that I can’t predict the future.

Definitely not.

It really means emotional ups and downs are making my delusional self a little worse than usual, and I can most likely calm it by being very low stim except for non triggering or the type of triggering I want music. Ensure sleep happens. I’m okay.

My parents are keeping G for a week. I’m just feeling extra anxious, fearful, for four ish days in a row, including some today, but today is not as bad. I try every day to figure out how to actually express gratitude I have for our home, my family, safe neighbors, water. Communities like this forum.

Extra frozen, and feeling guilty for that, but not despondent. Until 1pm, of course. My everything-is-hopeless hour.

I am looking up whenever I’m the passenger in a car, at where the tree lines meet the sky. Tracing the shapes of the tops of the trees with my eyes. It has really calmed down my anxiety about being in cars.

Thanks.

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In my dreams I’m constantly failing things. I’ll be in school solving a math problem for at least 2 hours in my dream. My mom thinks I do this because I went to so much schooling. I also dream that I travel a lot and everywhere I go people beat me and I can feel the pain in my dreams. My mom thinks I dream this because when I was younger I was in a gang and that I don’t travel anymore. Sometimes I can’t wait to wake up because I’m suffering so much in my dreams.

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Hugs. Are you ok?

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That’s awful, to have dreams like that. Consistently?

My therapist told me her with training/long work experience/personal experience, letters next to her name, all the things (Braggy Ms B.)… her current position on dreams that ‘the emotions and feelings in the dreams, not necessarily the content,’ are the thing to focus on.

How those emotions have been affecting the thoughts of past/effects on present for you, in the awake world. Or if it’s emotions attached to certain patterns/cycles that you do. More. She talks a lot.

It’s just what she says about dreams, this one nice lady. I like it as an approach though, it helps me sometimes to get less mentally messed up in the morning about how bummer, dreadful the stories, details of the dreams can be, right after waking up.

So* much schooling. I know only a little about this from you and I think it’s amazing. Let me know if I’m wrong though please.

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Sounds interesting, thanks for sharing

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Does physical pain in your dreams ever wake you up?

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No I can’t wake up so I suffer