i sometimes feel it even tho it could be much worse, but i feel kind of inhuman about never going outside or leaving the house for such long stretches of my life. kinda like it has permanent damaged my ability to do so regularly, i still dont know if im even capable of other work where i wouldnt be in my home, as even this can be a drag
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I feel pretty incapable especially compared to a normal person.
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im psychotic 24/7 even on meds and the illness ācrushesā you to death. spend all day thinking about what the voice in the trash can said
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Iām too unaware to realize how bad my life is. Sure, I go to work but I spend the majority of the rest of the time friendless and alone. Iām fairly content though but I know Iāve been missing out on a lot in life and Iāve dug myself into a deep hole.
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Like @Mars I feel unwell in some way always. I have bad days where I have to really fight to get through. And worse days where I can do nothing.
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I am blessed to have some good days, so I generally have hope that things can get better and will do so at some point. On my bad days, I feel like Iām losing myself. I donāt know how often I have them, but I have a good support system, thank goodness.
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Prime example. Didnt sleep well last night. Left house early to travel into west central London. The bus terminated outside Tesco which I magically deciphered to mean āTime to goā. I walked rest of the way to the train station, and the train had cancelled. I felt a plot to murder me was being hatched so I ran home very distressed. So my plan to go Confession and Liturgy was thwarted. I cannot live like this!
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I feel pretry dysfunctional in many ways. I stay in the house 24/7 too and cant handle real social co tact with people.
I think we cant focus on the bad or it does crush youā¦. maybe we arent normal or functionalbut we still have life and some joy and peace even if its just less sufferingbut not perfect.
Sz has destroyed my life but there are moments of happiness and joy
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I used to be able to hold down a job so i was higher functioning but then i developed a neuro disorder that makes psychosis worse so now i cant work or do some basic tasks like cooking
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A good but, for me personally , complex question to answer. Thereās a big difference between how I am on forums such as this, that play to my strengths, vs how I function away from participation online. Thatās far more to do with the autism,IMO, than the schizophrenia/schizoaffective.Though the sz/sz-a may have some effect.
Due to not having an overabundance of practical intelligence I get quite a lot of support when it comes to tasks that require that. All that having been said there are those with sz/sz-a who are markedly more dysfunctional than I am.
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I can function most of the time until I feel harassed by something and I have thoughts I donāt want and feel ill. If someone helped me in the mind, make me calm and at peace, that would have been great.
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Had a great psychiatrist before but unfortunately he passed away. He was very kind and understanding.
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What Nero disorder do you have? How did you develop it?
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Life is not as good as pre pyschosis
But I am much better than many years ago when i would run to the bush, chasing voices of my ātorturedā family. I didnt even take basic camping gear and i went in and out of stages of hyperthermia. Now, if the voices say ājumpā i donātā¦
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I feel pretty functional these days. I have to admit that I adapt to the delusions I have and by doing so I see improvement. So some reflexivity with my delusions helps me strengthen my resolve and calm my mind. 14 years ago this spring will be how long itās been since onset. It was so brutal the first couple months. The first couple years were really bad. I didnāt date for 10 years. Thatās a decade lost of not feeling any connection at all.
So Iām just grateful that Iām where Iām at right now. Grateful to my friends and family. I wouldnāt be here without them.
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Its called functional neurological disorder. Mine stems from PTSD
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Iām more functional than I was except for holding down a job. I think trigger warning back in psychosis I actually worked more and was just paranoid at work, then I got hospitalized for the smallest reason and now Iām scared.
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I used to go out way more early into my psychosis because I was still in a regular person routine of school and activities and such, it was rough tho with voices and being paranoid but I was so used to routine I didnāt fear. it almost seems I got less functional with treatment because my fear was instilled and my energy and drive to push through the fear was depleted so I ended up deteriorating into a state of isolation and sedentarism
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Yes that sounds about right. Mine developed around my sophomore year of college. Even though I graduated. I came home and lost my mind.
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Today is that kind of day for me. le sigh